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diary entry #1

UH UH UMM I SAID I WOULDN'T WRITE ANGST AND WASN'T PLANNING TO BUT HERE WE ARE SUPEF SJORT IM SORRY
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hello,

my therapist told me that writing things down would help my mind and help me calm down or something? don't remember. anyways

i'm just sitting here, barbecue sauce on my tittiesKIDDINF IM KIDDING I HAD TO

i'm just sitting here, acting depressed as hell and moping around.

i miss george.

*cue a sigh*

i remember holding him at night, never wanting to let go and just smothering him in kisses.

i remember forcing him outside and taking him to go stargazing at one am.

i remember his gentle smiles, his eyebrow raised, and those eyes. those goddamn eyes. honey-kissed, golden, shaded. it seemed that they changed into multiple shades.

he was the warmth in my heart, he made me feel safe and protected. understood.

but i had to go fuck that up.

i remember the night, the night he left me. it was my fault.

i remember his soft, dainty hand that carressed my cheek, the golden shine in his eye missing, covered up my tears.

"i love you, but it's so difficult to." he had said, the words cutting into me.

"george.." i had said, grasping his hands on my cheek, wanting them to be there forever.

"maybe we'll meet eachother in a different life. i can help you then. but i've helped you enough. i can't if you won't help yourself, clay." his eyes bore into mine, flecks of gold was barely visible.

"what if we don't,"

"hm?"

"what if we don't meet in a different life? what if i never see you again?" tears filled up my eyes.

george softly pressed our foreheads together.

"we will. i promise," he whispered.

he planted a chaste kiss on my lips, and had walked away.

"in our next life, clay."

312 words😭😭

IM SORRY THIS IS SO SHORT UGG I
i broke my two toes and fractured another bone two days ago lol😁
BUT I HOPED U ENJOYED HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY MWA ILY

cho