It's like we were puzzle pieces. We didn't fit together but I tried so hard to make it work. I even broke some of my own puzzle pieces so we could fit, but in the end, we still couldn't fit. I looked for comfort in things that ultimately destroyed me. I yearned for death to finally come my way but I knew that wasn't the way to go. I just wanted to be loved and cared for but who would love and care for a girl like me. Hot showers, I took them daily. I pretend the hot water was melting my skin until I was nothing but bone.
I wanted him to hold me like he did that one day as we watched the beautiful sunset. If I knew that would be the last time his fingertips touched my skin and him holding me...
I would've never let go
The worst part is having to accept it. I was tired of being sad and crying all the time when he seemed perfectly.
He was with Pansy, out of all the people he chose Pansy. That's what hurt the most. I was ashamed of myself, I mean why wouldn't he pick her. She was so much more beautiful than me, much curvier, and much more skinnier than me
Maybe if I lost weight people would want me. Maybe if I looked more like her people would want me. I felt so much for him and he felt nothing for me and that just didn't feel fair. I feel in love with him and he didn't deserve my love. I just wanted things to work out for me once in life.
He used me, I loved him so much. I really thought he cared. That someone actually cared for me once but he only saw me as an object. I always fell too hard and then realized they would never even trip. I wondered if he ever cried for me like I did for him. I always forced myself to deny feelings because I was too afraid to be consumed by it. I wish I had the strength to just go up to him and say it but he seemed happier with her.
Maybe they were supposed to be together and we weren't.
I always fancied Draco but I never did anything about it because I knew we would never go anywhere. Just when we did, I hit rock bottom again. Hurting someone's feelings is as easy as throwing a rock in the ocean, but they never know how deep that rock goes.
I just wanted to be the one he loved
I wasn't the type to be suicidal but like I said, it felt good that I was causing my own pain at least. So I cut one day
And then the next
And then the day after that
And then days turned into weeks
I can't help but love you even though I try not to
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General Fiction"You said you'd never leave me" "You said forever"
