Whatchamacallit

Feeling inside

"Bad girls underneath, like that You know how I'm feeling inside"

Alex's pov: " You are so manipulative you know that" I started shedding my tears, "you play with my emotions, I was so happy," I said barely audible, Everyone has flaws and secrets but I was so tired of being lied to and treated differently because im not what someone wants, Daya made me feel so free and happy, I loved it and I was finally drifting off my feelings for Kayla especially since we haven't talked, she's been avoiding me and I don't even bother trying to figure out why because I know whos the cause, I just avoid the feeling and try to erase her from my mind. I looked at Daya's face pissed as I have seen the guilt " I didn't cheat on you I was faithful and you break up with me all because of what? cuz you don't trust me? you wanna compare me to your past? you can't let that go?  I do so much for you and one lil insecurity fucks up everything ?" I screamed out, I had so much rage, I was tired of excuses, She thought it was okay to even try to manipulate me. I backed away and walked out the door not even hearing the footsteps behind me.. My heart skipped a beat as the thought crossed my mind but I put my pride aside and decided to do it. I walked downstairs into my car, Putting everything down and driving off, My mind wandered off as I felt like I was going to regret this decision. 

An hour later: I pull up into the driveway seeing one car parking, walking up to the door knocking on it as I look up at the ceiling saying a quick prayer, as the door opens, I see her face, I took a sec to grasp the hold of how she looked, How good she looked, I tried not to drool but my mind cuts off as she speaks " what are you doing here" I sighed " Can we talk ?" " ion think that's a good idea- I cut her off " is Asia home?" she shook her head " when will she be back " tomorrow" " so then whats the issue ?" she rolled her eyes and let me in knowing she wasn't gonna win this argument " you took a bold risk coming over here " she looked at me, examined my face " I see the fire in your eyes what's wrong" " Daya  told me I was too rude for her, that I was a bitch and all I wanted was sex but YET she told me I showed that scared, What type of BS is that?" " I mean you can be a bitch but I ion think that's an excuse to walk away from you since you keep that bitch attitude from the jump and ik you don't stay nice for anyone especially when you meet em" " MY point" " seems like she likes to have some control over you, that's childish" I hear her say as she lights up a blunt " why isn't your ling here" I smile as she choked at my question " you wrong " she busted out laughing " leave my baby alone" " yall are so toxic" she flicked me off " ion see you complaining, you steady keep fuckin with me" I rolled my as she passed the blunt and shrugged " so what?" " look at me " I turn to her "what's ya deal ?" I scrunched my eyebrows" with me ?, I ain't as good as I seem so why me? " I took a long drag as she snatched the blunt out my hand and turned my head towards her " answer me " " Your intriguing, I like that, You make me feel mad different I don't know how to express it, its just ur like an addiction and I like the feeling, but I cant have you and I hate it but I accept it, I like the fact we talk but its an issue because ik how my feelings are with you, one min im over you and then you hmu and I start to like the warm spot you give me, it was away stronger when we met, very ridiculous too but you don't see it because you either jus don't see in between the lines or you don't care to see it" "I care" "you don't care" " you think you do but you suck at showing it" I sighed " in the end imma always be the hurt one in this situation but I front cuz I care about you, dumb ass and thats all I need to my advantage, ion gotta be with you to care, I jus want you to allow me to dig deep into you and know you" " understandable, your a simp" I smacked my lips as she started laughing,  i got up and smacked her neck "oww nigga ole rude ass" I laugh walking into her kitchen seeing a bottle of liquor, Grabbing a glass " you ain't gonna get me a glass " I turned around " aww.. no " she looked taken back and offended" get out my kitchen" I poured a glass "make me" I take a long sip as I felt her presence in front of me "don't you gotta girl " she got closer to my ear as i tensed up " when has that stopped you before" feeling her hands wrap around my body as i looked up at her and remove her hands from my waist " its my turn-" I hear the door unlock " i thought u said she wasn't coming back " " i thought so " BITCH"

I run into her room with my shit hearing her voice " whose car is that ?" " what car ?"  she smacked her lips " the one in the driveway Kayla" "I don't know" " oh so you think im stupid" this nigga is stupid I run and open the window closing it soft running and starting my car, speeding off

Kayla's pov: " WHO WAS THAT" " nobody" " YOU THINK IM DUMB?, WAS YOU CHEATIN ON ME, BRO I SWEAR TO GOD"- " Asia please shut up, You acting like I haven't cheated on you a couple of times, it's not like you EVER gonna leave, no matter how many times I do you wrong or you do me wrong, we end up back together so calm the hell down please, " I hate you" I shrugged my shoulders, " it doesn't anymore hurt more when you say that so stop trying, I walked out the bedroom door grabbing a glass of wine " why are you like this?" I scrunched my eyebrows " like what", " you cheat on me, you never care about me, its always about you, always about your HURT and never mines", she sounded like she was about to cry, " Are you serious right now? when I make it about you, its an issue with it, when we talk about our feelings you make it an issue and expect me to keep kissing your ass, I take care of you MORE than me, and it still isn't enough for you faithful or not, you don't appreciate me to save your life, if you were gonna be like this I would've left you with ya ex because this is so stressful for no reason" she scoffed " Your selfish, and delusional and you need to cut my ex-best friend off, don't think I don't see you two flirt all the time, and you compare me to her like shes better then me as she does too much better then me  " " wha-" "CUT HER OFF OR WE ARE DONE" I felt my heart become warm and hurt inside, I stood there for a second as I watched her walk back into the room, trying not to text this girl like I won't regret...every time I fall in this trap and I dont know why I fall into this girls trap i thought as I texted this girl a long ass paragraph 

" take more control'

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