Whatchamacallit

The crying game

### "Thousand Words" - Revised Chapter

#### Alex's POV:

Trying to free myself from the shackles of you is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I wish I didn't think of you as much as I do, but I can't help it. The minute I walked out of your house, regret washed over me. I wished I'd told you how I really felt, wished you'd given me what I needed, but you couldn't even do that. I wish we could've had a better conversation, but you couldn't tell me how you felt. I wish I could impress you, show you what's going on in your head, but here I am, thinking about you again.

This is my third time on this balcony, lost in thought. We haven't talked in a week, and I can't tell if it's my fault or her ego getting in the way. Not that I mind the break; maybe I needed it to think clearly.

#### Kayla's POV:

Every time I try to find happiness, something or someone shoots it down. Nothing ever goes right for me. I don't even care if I live to see another day or watch my kids grow, because it seems no one wants to see me thrive. I hope that doesn't sound heartless, but if it does, so be it. I'm trying not to be angry, but I am. I cut everyone off for this girl, and for some reason, I feel guilty. Am I doing this because I love her, or because I'm under her control and didn't listen to what everyone was telling me?

"Asia," I called. She stomped into the kitchen, frustration written all over her face. "What?"

"Fix your attitude. We need to talk."

"Talk for what?"

"Are you pregnant?" She paused, looking like she was coming up with a lie.

"No, I'm not. How could I be? I told you I went out for daiquiris not too long ago. Why would you ask me that?"

I shook my head. "Just asking."

"You weren't just asking shit."

"And I was."

She looked pissed. "Is there anything else you want to ask or get off your chest?"

I sighed. "You made me cut off the only person who checked in on me, told me to be safe every time I went somewhere. You don't even do that as the person I say I love. The only friend who asked me how I was feeling every day and made sure I was okay. My friends, the ones I've known for years, don't even do that. But you don't care about me. You never ask if I'm okay, never think twice before arguing with me. You expect me to be okay with how you're treating me. I know you'll take this the wrong way, pick out the least important shit, and leave because you're not mature about your feelings. But at least act like you care. Try to take care of me, act like you give a fuck about me. I'm not choosing her over you, I just want you to act like you care. But that will never happen because your bond with me is different, and you think that's okay. But I'm glad you and your little friend have each other."

She looked speechless. I grabbed my keys, walked out the door, and sped off in my car.

#### 20 Minutes Later:

"I don't know why you do this to yourself, Kayla, but I support your decisions," Tasha said, looking into my eyes.

"Your voice calms me," I replied.

She laughed. "You tell me that every time we talk."

She paused. "We haven't talked in months. Why is that?"

"Look, you know I appreciate you and love you so much. There's just so much going on, and I don't want you involved."

"I'm happy you stood up to her and are finally figuring out your worth. I just hope someday you do what's best for you." She kissed my lips, and I kissed her back, wrapping my hands around her waist.

(A/N: Okay, this girl is a HORNY ASS HOE)

"Ah ah, you need to go home," she said.

"I don't want to face her right now."

"Well then, I guess we can spend some time together," she smirked.

#### Alex's POV:

Fixing my clothes and wiping my face, I looked at her. "Why do you use me?"

"Because you let me. You can't say I'm doing it to hurt you when you let me."

She nodded. "I have to go. I have things to fix, and this will be the last time we encounter each other, Bri."

Fixing my heels, I walked out of the building to my car. I didn't have any regret; I just needed to clear my mind and find pleasure. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I hadn't met her at the wrong time. I can't even ask that. I pulled out of the parking lot and drove off.

#### 30 Minutes Later:

Walking up to my door, about to unlock it, I heard footsteps.

"Well well," I looked up.

"What do you want, Asia?"

"I assumed Kayla was with you. You seem to be her go-to whenever she needs to release."

"Excuse me, bitch?"

"You're excused."

"Kayla isn't here, and we haven't encountered each other in almost three months. So please, by all means, go jump off a balcony and perish because I don't want to fight with you anymore."

She smiled. "So you give up?"

I looked at her. "Oh, I never do. I've already won." I winked and smirked, walking into my house and slamming the door.

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