"Do you have to go" I ask as kian hugs me tighter. He told me last week he has to go on tour with O2L for a month
"Yes, but I promise as soon as I get back we will spend all of our time together" he says as he looks at me
"But I'll still miss you" I say as I stand on my tippy toes and kiss him
"And I will FaceTime you every night" he says as he kisses me again
"Flight 104 now boarding" a female voice in the intercom says
"Kian we gotta go" Jc says as he hugs me tight and kisses me again
"I'll see you soon baby" he says as he lets go
"I'll miss you" I say as he starts walking backwards
"I'll miss you too" he says as he lets go of my hand. He turns and walks away. I watch him walk away for awhile when I feel a tear run down my eye. I won't see him for a month.
After standing there for awhile I turn around and leave. I was going to miss kian so much
^^a week later^^
"T you have to leave your room. Like I know that you miss kian but you have to leave your room" JJ says as he opens my blinds
"Let's go to the beach" G suggest
"Yeah come one T we can match like we use too" Sammy says poking my sides
"How about no" I tell them as I dig my face into my pillow
"T" Jj says as he pulls me into his lap
"Can't I just sleep" I say as I climb back into my bed
"Tosca you need to get up" G says as sammy leaves my room
"Nooooooope" I say extending the o
"Yeah she won't get out of bed" sammy says as he walks back in the room "she's right here" he adds as he passes me the phone. I see he was FaceTiming kian
"Hi baby" I say as I sit up
"You have to leave your room" he says right away
"I do. I always go to get food" I tell him
"You have to leave the house. Please. Go to the beach go have fun. Don't hide because I'm not there. Please leave for me baby" he begs. I guess he's right.
"Fine" I say as I see him smile
"Okay I have to go to a meet and greet I'll FaceTime you later" he tells me
"Okay bye baby" I reply as I blow him a kiss
"Bye" he says then hangs up
"Okay so what bathing suit are you wearing" Sammy asks as he opens the betting suit drawer "I was thinking neon pink or the American flags" he says holding up my bikinis
"Neon pink. Now get out so I can get ready" I say as I push them out of my room. I quickly shower then change into my strapless neon pink bikini. I don't bother applying makeup because it get washed off. I loosely braided my hair then put on some white Ray bands then throw on some Jean short shorts.
"T you ready" I hear Jj yell as I finish packing my beg.
"One minute" I yell as I grab my phone, keys, put on neon pink flip flops and put on my backpack. I walk outside with the guys then lock the door
"Oh by the way Chris, Craw, Mya, Lily, Lynn, Alynn and Sadie are meeting us there" G tells me
"Who names their kids Lynn and Alynn like they aren't even twins. Isn't Lynn like 17 and alynn like 18" I say as we all get in Sammys car. I ride shot gun, Sammy drives and the jacks sit in the back seat
"I know" they all agree
^^six hours later^^
It was dark out and we where having a non fire on the beach. Everyone was all snuggled up together so I walked down the beach and say in the sand away from everyone. I felt tears roll down my cheeks when someone sat beside me. I looked over and saw Chris
"what's wrong" he asks as i whip my tears away
"For a month straight I was with kian everyday and I just miss him so much already" I explain as more tears run down my cheeks
"You wanna go home" he asks and I nod my head. He helps me up, we get our stuff then head home. When we get home I say good night then go in my room. I change into some booty shorts and one of Kians T-shirts he left here.
I finished washing my face and was looking in the mirror. I started crying. I backed up till I was against then slide down it. I was sitting on the floor crying when I looked at my wrist. I saw all the scares.
All my scared where from when I was 13 to 15. I was really depressed and cutt myself and also I tock a lot of pills and I wasn't really in a good place.
I was looking at my scares when i remembered I have blades sitting right across from me. Just sitting in a a pill bottle next to a small baggy with a bunch of pills beside it.
I got up grabbed the bottle and the baggy and I guess you know what I did next.
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Omaha boys are my best friends (Omaha Squad fanfic)
Casuale18 year old Tosca Stevens has been best friends with Sammy Wilkinson, Nate Maloley, Jack Gillinsky and Jack Johnson since she was 6. They have been inseparable ever since. But when Taylor Caniff, Carter Reynolds, Nash Grier and Cameron Dallas come f...
