The Last Drop (Grey's Anatomy)

Talking can Ruin the World

Derek POV
After my talk with Cristina I decide I need to talk with Meredith when I get home. I just scrubbed out of surgery and I head to the attending lounge grabbing my coat and keys ready to rush home. I walk out the front entrance quietly waving to a couple people while heading out. Its already dark and I stare at the sky seeing it splattered with light stars. I sigh quietly and text Meredith I'm on my way home before starting my car. She doesn't answer. I worry a little bit I know she probably sleeping. I quickly drive home.

Meredith POV
I had fallen asleep while reading my book and quickly jerk awake after hearing the front door slam shut. I look at my cell phone seeing two missed messages from Derek and sigh knowing it home who is home. He always worries when he doesn't need to. Unless he does need to. I've only resorted to cutting twice since the last incident and only if I desperately need to find a way to escape my horrific thoughts. I swing my legs over the bed and start to shuffle down the stairs. "Hi," Derek solemnly says while I walk down the stairs. I can see that he is exhausted and in a mood to talk. "Hello." I state calmly. "So, you heard Cristina was cleared for surgery?" Derek asks questionably. "Yeah I woke up and she wasn't there so I called her, I'm happy for her." I say with a small smile quite noticeable that I forced it. "Are you sure Meredith?" He asks. "Why wouldn't I be sure?" I quickly ask with a more angry tone than I intended. "Meredith.. it's just.. I don't know okay! You don't talk to me and you acts emotionless! It's like your not even here! Your making no effort to get back to work or talk about anything! All you do is sleep all day and never tell me your struggles! Your best friend died and it like you don't even care, you just walk around all sluggish! You are being selfish! I need to you to stop being worthless and communicate with me!" Derek shouts, immediately filling with regret and guilt. I just stare at him noticing my eyes start to became glassy. Selfish?!? Worthless?! Seriously how could he even accuse me of that. I start to charge past him shoving my arms through my coat holes and slipping my tennis shoes over my feet. "Meredith..." Derek says quietly. "WHAT DEREK? what could you possibly want from being so worthless?! Huh? What!?!" I scream at him while unlocking the front door, "Meredith where are you going?! Meredith get back in here it's cold out there!" Derek shouts as I walk out the front door. "Why would you care Derek?! I'm going somewhere that's not here!" I yell across the porch as I start my car and drive away.

Derek POV
How could I have said those things. I didn't  mean it. I would never try to hurt Meredith and now she was driving alone around Seattle in the dark and I have no possible idea where she is going besides one place. Cristina's house. It's only a 10 minutes drive away from Our home so in 10 minutes I will call and ask. I walk over to the kitchen; tears falling freely from my face. I couldn't believe my self, I was so incredibly stupid. I decide to call Meredith multiple times leaving many voicemails and messages. No answer. It's been about 10 minutes so I decide to call Cristina.
C: "Derek? It's like 11:00 what do you need?"
D: "Is Meredith there?"
C: "No Derek, why would Meredith be here? Did you talk to her?!"
D: "Cristina! Don't lie, if she is there tell me I won't come over I just need to know she's safe."
C: "Derek she is not here I promise, what did you say to her? Why would she be here?!"
D: "We kind had a fight and she drove away, I was hoping she would go to your house! I have no idea Where she is!"
C: "Ok, ok, Derek calm down. She's probably just fine at a hotel or something, don't panic."
D: "Ok, ok. Your right she is fine, ok? Your right."
C: "Yes she probably just needs some space, we can try to find her tomorrow ok? Just try to get some sleep for tonight, alright?"
D: "Alright thank you Cristina, I'll see you tomorrow."
And with that the call ending, I couldn't help but feel terrible. I tried to wipe my thoughts and slowly made my way up the stairs and climbed into bed, falling asleep instantly after my very long day.