Falling into Summer

Chapter 22

Carter

After spending all day Wednesday dreaming about another night with Haley, I knew I wouldn't be able to keep my hands off her once we were in bed together. And just as I expected, it was even harder to fight my passion and pure need for her. I could tell it was just as hard for her because she confessed that she wanted me to kiss her when I was trying to fight it. But after what felt like hours spent kissing everywhere but the one place I wanted, I couldn't hold back any longer.

As I stared down at her and she stared up at me, I said goodbye to the last straw of self-control I had left, and gave in to my last and final desire, and kissed her the way I've been daydreaming of kissing her. Feeling her soft lips against mine, I was timid at first, unsure if she'd let me kiss her, but when she didn't pull away, I knew there was no turning back. Then when she kissed me back, and each touch became more passionate, I was finally able to let Haley feel how much I've wanted her this whole time. After weeks of anticipating this very moment, I thought it would never live up to my expectations... and I was right, because that kiss surpassed any expectations I had for what I thought our first kiss would feel like... It was unlike anything I've ever experienced... It literally rocked me to the core with all the affection she spilled over to me, and I just couldn't tame my passion for her after that.

As I felt her pushing her own passion on me, and we were communicating in ways we hadn't previously, we started to pull off each other's clothes and we spent the rest of the night and into the morning loving away any residual hesitation and questioning, and exchanged parts of our being with one another.

I've spent the whole day savoring the memories as I have all our nights this week. Without realizing it, Haley is making it nearly impossible for me to even consider leaving her behind this weekend, and I just don't know what I'm going to do without her for a week.

Haley

When Carter's alarm wakes us Thursday morning, we're still soaking up the intimacy from last night as our naked bodies are entangled together comfortably. After deciding he's staying home again, he talks me into staying a little longer, but only so he can try to convince me to stay in bed with him all day. Appreciating his boldness, I relish every seductive kiss, touch, and flirtation he bestows upon me, as he refuses to let me fall back asleep or leave. But when my alarm goes off, I somehow manage to leave him in bed, so that I can go home to get ready for class.

I spend the rest of the day totally distracted and on cloud nine. Last night was more than just a victory to me, it was the first time I'd actually felt how Carter feels for me. Even after everything he's said, and everything he hasn't said, I know in my heart that Carter cares for me and that if he could, he'd be with me. He doesn't have to say it because I felt it last night, with every touch, kiss, and breath. He handled me with such care and affection that I couldn't believe I ever doubted him. His words may not have aligned with his actions in the past, but everything he was displaying last night cemented what I've suspected all along... Carter and I are meant to be together because we fit perfectly, emotionally and physically. And now I can't get enough of him. I want to spend every moment I can savoring the passion and intimacy between us, showing him how much I care for him. I've never in my young life experienced the feelings he's stirring in me, and I didn't know there was more to love than what I'd already known, but he's changing what I thought love was, what I knew about it, and what I want it to be. Without knowing it, he's changing me, but I like the person I can be when I'm with him, and I don't want to spend another moment without him.

Although I'm eager to return to Carter, and spend our last night together before he leaves for Virginia tomorrow, I head home after class to meet up with my mother as we discussed earlier this morning. I know she wants to catch up considering we haven't really seen each other all week with her working late, my unconventional class schedule, and then me spending every night at Carter's. When she gets home, we chat in the kitchen as she unpacks her lunch bag.