to all my lovers

how you made me choose

As I said before, those three weeks consisted of eventful days. Mostly Fred sucking up to me and me growing closer to Draco, the main thing I figured out is that Fred is more a less 'in it for the sex'

I wouldn't neccesarily say he was using me but every chance he got to see me or talk to me or send me something it was always made to be sexual, don't get me wrong I loved these moments with Fred but it was every single time.

I wanted him to be a little more sentimental or caring rather than just using our time together for pleasure.

Another difference was that Draco was more tender, we didn't do anything 'sexual' we kissed a few times but he would never want to force himself upon me.

FLASHBACK DRACOS POV:

tonight was the night I began my 'classes' with snape for the dark lords task and all I could think about was this stupid 'game' Fred had planted in blues mind.

Of course I wanted blue but I didn't want it this way, I didn't want to have to compete against Fred for her love.

She is a person not an object.

I know how important this task is but my mind won't stop straying from-

"Blue...."

And there she stood walking towards me in the moonlight, it was around 1am and she was of course trailing around the castle in the dead of night going on her 'adventure' exploring the castle- fuck. She's caught me.

"Draco what are you doing out here so late?"

She slowly made her way up close as I bent down to kiss her on her forehead, "just needed some air"

I smiled down at her beautiful face, she had no makeup on, messy hair in her pjs. And she was still so perfect. And hot.

"Kiss me"

Her gentle words only enticed me further, god I just wanted to grab her, haul her over my shoulder and do unholy things with her in the classroom behind her. But I couldn't. I couldn't do something with her while we are in this 'game' with Fred, I wanted it to mean something more than 'trying to win her over'

I lightly pecked her plump lips for a moment as I unwillingly pulled away.

I began to walk away as she smiled at me playfully.

I didn't want to force myself upon her, even if we were both dying to do it. I didn't want it to be this way.

BLUES POV (PRESENT DAY)

Draco and I spent our nights, well early in the night since he had to keep disappearing to go 'get some air' even though he wouldn't let me come, reading, talking, joking and laughing.

He was so eloquent with his words, I lay upon his chest as he read me his favourite books and i vice versa. His words became playful whenever he would make me laugh, and his words became quieter as the days went on.

"Draco why weren't you at breakfast?" I stood away from him on the steps of the potions classroom with my books clasped against my chest. He simply stood care free against the wall keeping his gaze down.

He hadn't been at breakfast for 6 days now, he didn't usually appear at lunch unless I was in a class with him before hand.

"Not hungry" he spoke with pure monotony.

I poured a concerned yet caring look over my face as I went to reach for his arm until someone called out my name.

"Oi blue!" Ron. Loud as ever.

I turned to face ron and Harry stood even further away probably awaiting my father to let us in, Ron was smirking but Harry looked almost embarrassed