Absent

Chapter 12

•Kizzy•

I take it back. I take back what i said. But it's too late now. She stood there and i watched tears run down her face. What is wrong with you?! You fucked up your own bullies emotions! Maybe- Maybe i'm a bully?

"Farah-"

"Don't fucking talk to me!! You hear me!!!! LEAVE ME ALONE!!"

I felt so bad. I felt tears running down my face too. We were both crying. But for totally different reasons. She looked straight up at me, staring into my eyes. "Who do you think you are?!" She snarled.

I took a step back and said nothing. Every time i breathed it looked like i was vaping. My words and breathes turned into smoke. It was so cold. Which made this even worse. I should go home. I don't deserve to be here anymore.

I wiped my tears away. Inside i was dying... but on the outside i was numb. I mean i cry, but if i cry too much nothing comes out. I watched Farah turn away. She ran down the steps, down the street into the darkness and didn't look back once. What have i done?! It's all my fault!! Farah is hurting and i just made her hurt even more. Mom wouldn't like who i am right now. She would be disappointed in me. I knew better than to say those hurtful words. I know better.

I collapsed to the hard floor, sobbing. It's all my fault. It's all my fault. It's all my fault. "I'm a bully." I whispered in between my sobs. "I'm a bully."

I pounded my fists on the hard ground and screamed. I screamed as loud as i possibly could. I didn't think, i just did it.  "I DESERVE NOTHING!!! NOTHINGGGG!!"

Out of nowhere i felt someone wrap their arms around me. They smelled like cologne. Minty cologne. I realized that it was Braxton holding me. I started crying even harder. I couldn't hold it in.

"Kizzy... everything's going to be alright."

"Nothings alright." I cried out.

"Trust me. I love you Kizzy, and i'm always going to be here for you. Everyone makes mistakes. That's why we're human. Because we learn from our mistakes, and we get stronger and more wise."

I took a deep breathe. His arms still wrapped around me. He was playing with my hair and i felt his heart beating against me. He felt so warm. And he made me feel wanted for once.

"I love you too Braxton."

I leaned against him even more and he didn't let go. I guess he really does care about me. He's my cousin, and cousins should love each other no matter what happens. I don't make the rules.

"You wanna head home now Kizzy? It's getting cold out here and it's dark."

I sighed. "Yea i guess."

He picked me up and held me close to him and then let go, allowing me to walk on my own. I followed him off of the swing set and onto the actual ground. As we were walking down the street, a guy was heading towards us.

"Braxton!!! Someone's after us!"

He turned around and went in-front of me. "Stay here."

Without hesitation he went up to the guy. "Whatcha doing out here?"

The guy looked him up and down, but said nothing.

"Why are you following us? You want something?"

His face dimmed into a smirk. "Yea. I do."

I could tell Braxton was getting scared. But his hands were in fists. "Well what do you want?!"

The guy pointed his finger right at me.

"The girl."