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𝔸𝕦𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕣𝕤 ℕ𝕠𝕥𝕖: 𝕋𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖'𝕤 𝕒 𝕥𝕚𝕞𝕖 𝕤𝕜𝕚𝕡 𝕝𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕠𝕟 𝕓𝕖𝕔𝕒𝕦𝕤𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕘𝕦𝕪𝕤 𝕤𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕒𝕝𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕪 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕨𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕖𝕟𝕤 𝕚𝕟 𝕓𝕖𝕥𝕨𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕗𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 𝕤𝕙𝕚𝕘𝕒𝕟𝕤𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕒'𝕤 𝕠𝕦𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕘𝕒𝕥𝕖 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕨𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕖𝕟𝕤 𝕓𝕖𝕗𝕠𝕣𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕚𝕔𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕔 𝕥𝕣𝕚𝕠 𝕛𝕠𝕚𝕟𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕔𝕒𝕕𝕖𝕥 𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕡. 𝕀 𝕨𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕝𝕖𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕨𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕚𝕥 𝕥𝕒𝕜𝕖𝕤 𝕡𝕝𝕒𝕔𝕖 𝕤𝕠 𝕖𝕟𝕛𝕠𝕪 :)
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After Armin and I got to the boat, both Eren and Mikasa arrived. Their faces portrayed true fear. I can only imagine what they've seen. They walk over to us and we all sit in take in the current situation.

What a day. Just a few hours ago I was wrapped up in a blanket, sitting in a cold room. Now I'm running for my life. Why? Why did any of it happen? Why couldn't my parents just make it back? Why couldn't I stop Eren and Mikasa from running off. Why couldn't I be strong?

Am I strong? I mull over those words in silence for a few minutes as I try to come up with an answer. No. Of course I'm not strong. Someone who's strong wouldn't be sitting on a boat in fear as other people are being eaten alive. Someone who's strong wouldn't be crying after they saw what the enemy they swore to kill could really do. Someone who's strong wouldn't need to ask themselves if they are strong. I'm not strong.

What an eye opener this day was. I always told myself I was strong in order to attempt to hide the fact that I knew I was weak. I knew that I couldn't do anything when it really mattered. And now I can't hide it anymore. I'm a weak child. A child. A child who is fleeing in an effort to stay alive.

I look to the smoke filled skies as the rain starts to pour. What does it take to be strong? That's a question that gets answered over time.

"BOOM!!!" I jump at the sudden jolt of sound. What now? Today can't get any wor-. My eyes lay upon another titan. A titan that just broke through the wall. The wall... wall Maria... WALL MARIA HAS FALLEN!

No. No. No no no. This is all a dream. Tell me it's a dream. Why are they're people dying when they did nothing wrong? Titans... they're responsible for this. Why can't we just be free? I just want to explore the outside world with my friends. I never asked for this. I will make it to the outside world. I will save humanity. I will eradicate whoever is to blame for this, the titans. I will. I will. I swear I will.

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Today's the day. My first day in the cadet corps. The blistering heat of the sun scorches my back. Everyone is standing in rows and columns, praying that the commandant doesn't approach them.

"WHATS YOUR NAME MAGGOT!" The commandant yells. The freckled boy answers with pride in his voice. Marco. Marco Bodt. Dreams of joining the military police. I have no idea why he's want to join those sons of bitches.

I space out for long enough to not realize that the commandant is in my row. "Don't pick me. Don't pick me." I whisper to myself with my eyes shut. I open them to see a face staring back at me. A face of steel. One that can make any weakling shit their pants.

"And what's your name?" He says in a cold voice. I immediately shaped up and through my hand arm over the left side of my chest; the salut of a proper soldier.

"Y/N L/N FROM SHIGANSHINA DISTRICT SIR" I yell in an effort for the tension to be released.

"Ahh... and what are you doing here besides wasting my time?"

"I'm here to join the scouts and eradicate the titans so I can prove how strong I am."

"Strong? You're nothing but a measly cadet who can barely wipe their ass."

"That's what you think but I'll prove you wrong just like the rest of these lowlifes here." I say with a bit of sass in my voice.

"Oh really? What makes you so sure?" The commandant lowers down to my face with his eyes staring into my soul.

"For starters, i don't burn children's faces with the heat from my breath. Secondly, i don't seek validation from other people just to make myself feel a bit better. Of course, those barely scratch the surface but i see as though you understand my point." I answer.

Over the years I have developed a hatred for the commandant. After all, he's the reason my parents are dead. To top it off, he fled his position when the pressure was too great for him to bear. What a loser. Now he's here trying to scare us cadets shitless so he can try to establish some mastery over us. He honestly needs to get over his self and own up to his actions.

I shift my gaze to the left and right to catch glances of cadets starting at me like I'm out of my mind. Of course, that's not too far off the mark. I said what had to be said and what everyone was thinking. So be it if it was out of line.

"Oh is that so? You've got it wrong l/n. You're only here to seek validation from me so you can aim to become a scout. Strong my ass. You're a weakling. You better watch it because I heard the titans like their humans with a fire in them."

"Hm is that so? Now I wonder why they didn't eat you yet." A second after these words left my mouth, I realized I went too far.

"You've got spunk kid but it doesn't do shit to save your sorry ass from the dangers outside the walls. Pipe it down pipsqueak." His gaze becomes more intense, leaving my soul trembling. "Run until the sun sets. Lets see how strong you really are. Once you're done, see my in my office."

"Sir." With that, the commandant walks away. I'm sure he hates me now but at least the feeling is mutual. He probably expected me to buckle under the pressure like these weaklings here. But I'm different. Im strong. I'm the one who will save these losers along with his sorry excuse for a former commander.

I zone out for the remainder of the introductions. Once I snap back into reality, I proceed to start running until the sun sets. I don't care what he says. I will be strong unlike him because I'm strong.

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𝕎𝕠𝕨 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥𝕤 𝕒 𝕝𝕠𝕥 𝕥𝕠 𝕦𝕟𝕡𝕒𝕔𝕜. 𝕊𝕠𝕣𝕣𝕪 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕥𝕠𝕠𝕜 𝕤𝕠 𝕝𝕠𝕟𝕘 𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕤𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕠𝕝 𝕙𝕒𝕤 𝕓𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕜𝕚𝕔𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕞𝕪 𝕒𝕤𝕤 𝕠𝕟 𝕒 𝕤𝕡𝕚𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕦𝕒𝕝 𝕝𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕝 :/ . 𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕟𝕖𝕩𝕥 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕨𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕓𝕖 𝕪/𝕟'𝕤 𝕞𝕖𝕖𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕔𝕠𝕞𝕞𝕒𝕟𝕕𝕒𝕟𝕥 𝕤𝕠 𝕓𝕦𝕔𝕜𝕝𝕖 𝕦𝕡 𝕨𝕚𝕝𝕕𝕔𝕒𝕥𝕤.

(𝚙.𝚜. 𝚒𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚖𝚎 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚊𝚗𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚕𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝚘𝚛 𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚓𝚒 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛, 𝚙𝚕𝚣 𝚝𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚘 𝚖𝚢 𝚑𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚔. 𝚒𝚖 𝚐𝚘𝚗𝚗𝚊 𝚏𝚊𝚒𝚕 🥲)