Didn't Mean to Fall in Love

Chapter 11

*LUKE'S POV*

"So, could you forgive me?" I ask her. "No" she says and shakes her head. "Okay" I tell her. I know that being drunk is not an excuse for trying to force someone into having a sex with you. But I actually really like her. I know she has feelings for Ashton, and there's a chance she won't get over him and she'll never be with me, but Ashton is into Olivia right now. Why couldn't she just give me a chance? Maybe I could help her to get over him. "Are you sure there's no chance you could forgive me?" I ask her and bite my bottom lip. I'm looking at her and she's looking at me and she smiles. "Of course, there is a chance" she says finally. I smile at her. I lean closer to her and want to kiss her, but then I pull back. I know it's not a good idea.

*SUSAN'S POV*

He leans closer to me and it seems like he wants to kiss me, but then he pulls back. Why couldn't he just kiss me? It might help me to find out if I have some feelings for him or not. I'm thinking to kiss him for a little bit, but then I realize it might give him a fake chance. I mean he could think about that he has a chance and I actually have feelings for him. But I don't know if I do, I mean if I do, it wouldn't be that bad, but if I don't and I would just kiss him and he would think he has a chance but he actually wouldn't have he would be sad and disappointed. I mean, he's really great guy. He's nice and all and I don't want to hurt him.

*LUKE'S POV*

She stands up from the ground and lean her back on the wall. I stand up too and stand right in front of her. I lean closer to her and put my hand on the wall. "I'm sorry" I tell her and she nods and look up at me. She smiles at me and at this moment I stop control myself and crash my lips on hers. I couldn't help myself. I had to kiss her. I slightly press her against the wall and put my hands on her hips. But the most important thing is, that she is kissing me back. "I hope I don't disturb you" we're interrupt by the voice. I look to the direction where it comes from and see Ashton standing there and he looks angry.

*SUSAN'S POV*

"We need to talk" Ashton says and walks towards us, but he doesn't slow down. When he walks past me, he takes my hand and drags me somewhere. I know he's mad, but I don't think he has any reason to be. He opens the door and push me into the small room. "What the fuck you think you're doing?" he starts to yell at me when he closes the door. "What do you mean?" I ask innocently. "What the fuck was that?" he yells again. "What was what?" I still play an innocent girl, I know what he's asking about. "Don't play fucking innocent now. You know what I'm talking about. If not, let me remind you, that you were just kissing out there with my best friend and band mate in one person" he keeps yelling at me. "Oh, since when are you interested what I'm doing? Because, if you didn't realize, I'm on tour with you for 2 weeks now and Luke was actually the only one who was talking to me" I yell back at him. "I know that you're here. I was just busy and..." he starts but I cut him off. "Yeah, I noticed that you were busy. If this is how you're taking care of a relationship with your best friend, I have to tell you that you suck at being a best friend. Did you even think about where am I sleeping, or how do I feel? I bet you didn't because you were busy with Olivia" I spit at him and push him back and run away from there. I stop when I run out of the arena and sun blinds me for a second.

"Are you okay?" I hear a voice behind me. I don't have to turn around to find out who it is, because I already know it's Luke. "Yeah, I'm fine" I answer him. Well, I'm not actually that fine, I want to cry so bad, but someone told me he doesn't deserve my tears. Yeah, I know it was Luke. "Come with me" he says and takes my hand and leads me into the tour bus. I hear screaming from outside and then I realize that those screaming girls saw us. They saw Luke was holding my hand. They saw us together. I'm pretty sure there will be picture or video of this around the whole world in few seconds. I realize, what will happen if I would give him a chance. All the hate I would get just because I would be in a relationship with someone who I really like. Yeah, I'm sure I have feelings for Luke. When he kissed me few minutes ago, I'm pretty sure I felt something. No, I can't let this happen. I came here to support my best friend not to fall in love. "Everything's fine?" he asks from behind me and then I realize he has his hands wrapped around me. I pull out of his grip and turn my head to him. "What's wrong?" he asks me. "Yeah, I'm just, I'm thinking about what Ashton said" I say and sit down on the couch. "What did he say?" he asks and sit down on the couch right next to me and put his hand on my back and starts to run up and down my back. "He was pissed off without any reason, I don't get it" I say and shake my head. "Maybe he had a reason. You know, you're his best friend and basically you're like his sister and he just want to protect you" he says. "Protect me from what? From you? How could you hurt me?" I ask him. "I don't know, heartbreak? Maybe. And I don't want to say by this that I want to break your heart, but I don't know what Ashton thinks. I told you more than once that I love you and you know that" he says and I nod. I remember the times when he told me this. "And maybe he's just a little bit jealous" he thinks loudly. "Jealous? Of what?" I ask him and look at him with raised eyebrow and he shrugs. "He's probably mad at himself. He probably just realized he didn't spend time with you instead of her. Maybe he has qualms. You know, that he called you, but then all he did was that he was with her. But I'm actually glad he did this. He gave me more space and made everything just easier for me" he says and giggles. "I hate you" I tell him and giggle as well. He bites on his lip ring and then pull me closer to him. He kisses me on the cheek and I forget about hate for a while.