Didn't Mean to Fall in Love

Chapter 7

*SUSAN'S POV*

I don't talk with Luke for two days now. Yes, I am really mad for what he did. He shouldn't kiss me. We already moved from Paris to Dublin. Olivia is still with Ashton, so are the other girls. Mel's boyfriend is still with her, so I still have to share one room with Luke. We're not talking actually, because I'm mad for that he kissed me. He just basically shouldn't do it. Even when he apologizes to me like one hundred times, I'm still mad. I just can't get over the fact he did it. Well, I have to admit that I'm not actually that mad like I was after he did it. The truth is, I like it. His lips were so soft and the cold metal of his lip ring just made it better. But after this I am really confused. I mean, I like Luke now, but I just don't like him this way.

Now I'm staring out of the window. It's raining outside. Suddenly someone stands right behind me. I turn around and I see Luke. When did he come back? I didn't even hear the door. He's staring at me. C'mon, I thought we're over this. It's really weird feeling. "Look, I'm sorry. I shouldn't kiss you. I know that. Can you please forgive me?" Great, now he's apologizing. Again. I'll do what I am doing all the time when he does that. Just walk away. I make a step to bed, but then I feel how somebody is pulling me back. "Just, please, talk to me. This is ridiculous. We're sharing room together, but we're not talking to each other" he starts begging me. "Let me go Lucas" I say angrily. "No" he replies. "I said let me go" I'm losing my patience with him. "I heard you and I said no" he says still holding my arm. I try to escape from his grip, but he's much stronger than me.

After few minutes just standing there, we hear a noise from the room next to ours. After the scream we hear some words. And I know exactly who is in there. Ashton. With Olivia. Are they having sex like every single day or what? And then I feel the pain again. The fact that I will never be with Ashton something more than just friends. If we still are. My knees are weak and I'm falling to the ground. I'm down on my knees but one of my hands is still in the air because Luke still holds it, but then he kneels down to me and hug me "hey hey hey don't cry. He doesn't deserve your tears." But that's just makes me cry more. More and more tears are streaming down my face.

After about one hour I'm still on the ground and Luke is still hugging me. I rest my head on his shoulder and he starts rub my back. Suddenly I just wrapped my arms around his neck and he pulls me closer to him and hold me so tight. He places a kiss into my hair and then rest his chin on my head. "You know I love you, and if you let me get closer to you, I swear you'll never think about him anymore."