Didn't Mean to Fall in Love

Chapter 6

*SUSAN'S POV*

After three days she is still here. After 3 days I still have to share the room with Luke. It's actually not that bad. He's nice and he even cleaned the room. Also, he tries really hard to not make a mess. I told him he doesn't have to do this, but he made a decision. I already have my suitcase back and have my own stuff and clothes. I don't have to sleep in that Green Day t-shirt anymore. No, don't get me wrong, I don't have anything against the Green Day, but it's just, wearing someone else's clothes definitely doesn't make me feel comfortable. OK, that plaid shirt case was different. I actually have the really similar one, so it doesn't even matter.

I look at my phone. It's 11:30 and the boys have some radio interviews to promote their second album. It's actually really good. Luke played me few songs from it, but I promised him I'm not going to tell anyone. I'm bored. Well, I guess I'm going to talk to that Olivia girl. I need to know what's going on between her and Ashton.

I stand up from the bed and suddenly I hear the knock on the door. I go there and open. What a surprise, it's her. Great. "Hi, can we talk?" she asks with her super annoying voice. I take a deep breath, because I have to be nice to her just because Ashton is my best friend. At least he was before. I don't know how it is now. I should really talk to him. "Sure" I say, but actually I'm not really sure if I really want to talk to her. "So, I want this to be clear. Me and Ashton are dating now, so stay back" she says straight to me. Wow, she definitely doesn't say some stupid stuff around the thing. "Look, me and Ashton are just friends, I guess" I tell her. "Well, maybe that's what Ashton thinks. I'm not that stupid like he probably is. Such a poor cunt like you, who just has a crush on her best friend. But I'm telling you, put your fucking hands off of Ashton, or something bad will happen to you" she says and then leave. Wow, what the hell is she thinking she is? But then I realised, she called me a cunt, and poor. Nobody ever called me like that. Not even my stupid ex Bradley. The worst is, if I would try to tell Ashton, he's not going to believe. Looks like he's totally in love with her. I can't hold my tears anymore. I'm losing all that matters to me. I'm losing Ashton. I'm losing my best friend. I'm losing a chance to be more than friends with him. I lean my back on the cold wall and falling slowly to the ground. I can't stop the tears. I don't even want to stop them.

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I don't have any idea what time it is. It's dark outside. I'm still on the ground. I literally didn't move since she left this room. And I'm still crying. Thinking what I could have and what I lost.

Suddenly the door opens. "Damn it" great, Luke just trips up on me and falls to the ground. "What the fuck are you doing?" he says angrily. He stands up and switch on the light. I still didn't give him any answer. Why should I? It's none of his business. I'm trying to stop the tears. I don't want him to know I was crying. I don't want him to ask me questions. I want to run away. I don't care I don't even know where I am. I quickly stand up and try to leave the room. It's too late. He knows. He knows I cried. He stops me by holding my hand and pull me back. He looks into my eyes and, "hey, what happened?" I just shake my head and look away from him. He has nothing to do with this. "Hey, look at me" he says and turn my head towards him so I'm looking into his eyes again. "Look, if I did something just tell me. Is it just because I screamed at you just a while ago?" he asks. I just shake my head again. He puts his hand into his hair and takes a deep breath, definitely doesn't have any idea what to do. He puts his left hand on the wall behind me and with his right hand wipes my tears from my cheeks and from under my eyes. I smile at him shyly and he smiles back at me. Just seconds later he makes a move closer to my face and connect our lips together.