Baby LushLaws

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It's been 2 weeks since it has happened. I can do everything that I had once been able to do, walk, talk, sleep and eat. But the only thing I can't do is feel. I know, that I my heart I love Joey. I know what i am suppose to feel.
But my mind isn't letting me feel them.

I woke up this morning in my own bed, I check my phone.
Three texts from Joey.
'Good morning beautiful.'
'You up, yet?'
'Come over, we need to talk'

A glance at my phone, and yet I'm already done with today.

I make an effort to get out of my bed. And end up falling. My head ached still, but I didn't want to tell anyone. They would just tell me to go to the doctors but I don't need them. No more doctors. No more medication. No more 'it's gonna be okay'. No more.

The sun glared through my window and it was the only motivation I could have to get out of bed.
I made it to Joey's and I called him to tell him I was there.

"Hey babe, come here." The way he talked to me was like I'm broken, on which was arguable.
We walk upstairs into his room, and sat on his bed.
"What did you want to talk about" I try to sound happy, in some fashion.
"Are you sure, you know. Like are you okay? You seem so un-happy."
Why can't you realize I wanted to kill myself, Joseph. Why doesn't anyone get that?
"Everything is great, I just want time to think." I pause. Do I want to do this?
" would it be alright, if I to- if we took a break."
He looks at me, like I just stabbed him.
"We wouldn't have to tell your fans. It would be for a week, maybe two?"

I just fucked everything up. EVERYTHING.

"Um- y-yeah. I guess."
His eyes began filling with tears. And I couldn't help my self.
My hands reach for his face as my lips aim for his lips, then kiss him.
He kisses back, aggressively.
Our bodies come closer as the kisses become more passionate and hot.
He lifts my shirt, as I unbutton his.

'Do I want to do this'
His hand goes up my leg, faster as we kiss.
'Oh hell yes I do'

A/n:
Sorry, I was suppose to upload this like a month ago. But I have a boyfriend now and I have new classes to study for and stuff. So distractions aren't helpful :P
I'll upload the end soon