Sunray Of Reality

Sunray 1

TW: Sexual Abuse 

Ba't ang dilim? Creepy, gago. Deretso lang ang tingin ko sa hallway at kunwari'y matapang pero natatakot na ako. 

My eyes widened when a hand covered my mouth. I shouted but it came out muffled. I used my elbow at natamaan ko ang tiyan niya. When his grip loosened, I took that as a chance to spray my pepper spray on his eyes. 

Tears already want to escape my eyes. I blinked. 

This feels like... when I was running away from my uncle. I'm in his mansion because my parents went out of the country with my brother. 

I was fucking 13. 

"Ma'am Avraze, pinapapunta po kayo ni Sir Hugo sa opisina niya," one of the helpers said, I nodded and she walked behind me as I'm on my way to my Uncle's office. 

I knocked, I heard a baritone voice saying, "Come in," 

And I did. I went inside and saw him on the couch, drinking alcohol that I'm not really familiar with. 

"Come here," he tapped the space beside him, gesturing me to sit there. 

Since I do not have a choice, I walked towards him and sat by his side. Kapag hindi ako sumunod, baka saktan lang ako katulad noong minsan. I did my best to still have space between us because it's really uncomfortable. He moved closer to me, inakbayan niya ako at hinigit papalapit sa kaniya. 

I stiffened, I didn't know what to do.  

"Kamusta ka?" He asked. 

"Okay l-lang po," I answered, nervousness can be heard at every word. 

"Hmm, mabuti naman," he continued, inamoy-amoy niya ang buhok ko and it went down to my face and onto my neck. I felt like crying because of the fact that I'm so weak. I don't know what to do specially when I felt him kissing my skin. 

I can't do anything because who knows, there might be a gun. I can't beg him to stop, because I know he will just keep on doing it. I can't ask for help because their loyalty belongs to him. I can't scream. 

I just... I just can't. 

I'm so useless. 

Then, his phone rang. He had no other choice but to let go of me and walk towards his table and answer the phone. Tumalikod siya sa gawi ko and faced the window. I took that chance to run out of his office. I ran through the long and dark hallway. 

My vision became blurry and tears are uncontrollably flowing down my eyes. I turned right because that is the way back to the event. I looked back because of the fear that he might be chasing me but I bumped into someone that caused me to fall on the floor. 

"Please, stop. T-tama na... tama na." Paulit-ulit kong sabi. I can't see his face because of my tears and because of darkness. Both of my shaking hands are in front of me, as if shielding me.