narrations for my au (3)

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The wind blows through Jihoon's face keeping him cold despite the warm clothes he was wearing. He was honestly shivering in the middle of the year but still, he didn't show much reaction. He smiles unknowingly as he watches the students play around the field or hang out with their friends.

Nostalgic. Such a thing to feel right now.

"Never ko naman makakalimutan eh," someone spoke beside him, he didn't bat an eye as he knew whose voice it was. Hindi naman niya kailangan lingunin dahil presensya pa lang ng tao, kilalang kilala niya na.

Kahit limang taon na nakalipas, wala pa rin kupas.

His smile never left his face.

"Lalo na pag naiinip ka sa kadaldalan ni Soonyoung noon, dadalhin mo 'ko dito tapos kakain tayo sa ilalim ng puno," the man continues. It felt like he never left him, or walang nag-bago sa kanila. Parang nandito pa rin, pero ang pait, sobrang pait na gustong umiyak ni Jihoon sa kinauupuan niya.

This is what he loves about Junhui— the man is so natural with things, na kahit mahiyain nadadala niya ang usapan and will make you feel comfortable.

Kaya hulog na hulog sa kanya si Jihoon eh.

Hanggang ngayon.

Jihoon suddenly felt a presence beside him as he looks at his peripheral view seeing the man's legs a little wide open. He laughs inside as the man didn't even change a bit. Jihoon looks down as he started swaying his small legs compared to the man beside him.

Does he open up first? Or si Junhui mauuna?

Hindi siya sigurado sino mauunang pag-usapan kung ano man ang naiwan nila noon, kumbaga, nagpapakiramdaman lang.

"Jun—"

"Ang ganda parin 'no?"

Sabay silang nagsalita.

At sa oras na 'yon, hindi nila namalayan na nagkatinginan na pala sila.

Junhui smiled, warm and soft. You can see the way his eyes glistens as if the longing was over, while Jihoon's smile turned into surrow. He felt like choking as he locked eyes with Junhui feeling all the tears building up threatening to fall.

But it didn't.

Yet.

"Hi," Junhui starts wearing his famous smile everyone knew, that your first love kind of vibe. Jihoon wanted to smile back, but all he had given is a tear that started to fall from his left eye.

He laughs immediately wiping it with his hand as he looks back at the field, he then saw a hand in front of him with a handkerchief, he hears a laugh, "Wala pa nga eh, umiyak ka na diyan." Junhui says putting his handkerchief on Jihoon's open palm.

"Tahan na," Junhui suddenly puts his hand at Jihoon's back circling it, calming him from his sobs, "Your tears is just a waste especially the reason behind it is me. Sabi ko sa'yo diba ayaw na ayaw kita makitang umiyak dahil sa'kin?" Junhui adds.

Bakit parang ang bigat bigat sa pakiramdam ng mga sinabi ni Junhui sa kanya?

Junhui's voice was supposed to be Jihoon's serene, pati na rin yung kamay niyang humahagod sa likod niya para patahanin siya, pero bakit lalong lumakas iyak niya? Hindi niya rin alam.

"Sige," Junhui sighs, "Ako na lang muna magsasalita, okay lang ba? Ilabas mo lang 'yan, nandito lang ako." Junhui pats the back of his head as he looks back at the field, pero tinitingnan tingnan niya sa Jihoon para makita kung okay na ba yung tao, "Wala naman makakakita, ilabas mo lang 'yan." Junhui adds again.

Jihoon doesn't deserve this. Lagi niyang inuulit sa sarili niya 'yan. Yung sampung taon na pagka-kaibigan nila pati na rin yung apat na taong magkasintahan sila tinaboy niya lang basta basta, pero bakit ganon? Junhui is so calm and understanding to what his current situation is right now.

Kahit na siya yung mas may malaking sala sa kanilang dalawa.

Jihoon nods after minutes of silence as his sobs can only be heard and the faded voices of students in the field as Junhui pursed his lips thinking of the first words to form sentences that can not offend his past lover. He hesitates for a bit inside his mind as he slowly removes his hand by Jihoon's back putting it in his lap, clasping both of his hands.