Kenmas pov
"OI!ANSWER ME GODDANMIT"
heh. Why cant I do anything im trying to talk im trying to move, WHY CANT I MOVE WHY CANT I TALK.
I started crying... but I still can't move nor speak what the fucks wrong with me why cant I do anything why am I so broken, why cant anyone I love stay with me why does everyone I love leave me why am I such a freak why do I fucking exist, the only person I give a fuck about hates me and probably wants me dead fuck I even want myself dead so why don't I do it no one wants me noone... He hates me for something I didnt even do for something I got fucking framed for by his stupid jealous ass girlfriend I just want to leave because wouldnt that be the best solution for everyone...
"FUCKING ANSWER ME!"
"I-"
"Fucking pathetic, dont go near my girlfriend or me ever again"
"That won't be a problem kuroo you won't ever have to see me again and ill leave you guys and your relationship alone for good fuck ill leave everyone one for good..."
"Wha-"
I walked out... I didnt do anything I just walked out I was crying and I looked like absolute shit
"Ew get a load of this monster"
"He doesn't even know how to communicate"
"His minds in a different place"
"Everyone just give him a little space"
"Get a load of this train wreck"
"His hairs a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet"
(Please I love this song and I felt like I had to use it in this situation😢)
I tried to ignore everypone but every single one of their words entered my head like it lived there and my head was its home...
"Kenma!?"
I couldn't even look back I fucking give up I just kept running while people were staring at me I ran home I ran as fast I fucking could I didnt stop I couldn't... Everything hurt everything my lungs my heart my head my legs my arms my chest my eyes everything just fucking everything...
(⚠️ WARNING TW BLADES AND BLOOD IF YOY CANT OR DONT WANT TO READ THIS PLZ SKIP YOU WONT MISS ANYTHING THAT IMPORTANT IF YOY WANT ME TO I WILL POST A DIFFRENT PART OF THE SAME CHAPTER BUT THIS PART DIFFERENT WITHOUT THE TW⚠️)
I ran I inside grabbing a knife and I started cutting my stomach i dont know why I'm doing this
"I DONT WANT TO DO THIS I WISH I COULD WAKE UP WITHOUT WANTING TO KILL MYSELF I DONT WANT TO CUT MYSELF, IM TO FUCKING YOUNG TO DIE BUT IF I LIVE NO ONE WILL WANT ME TO STAY HERE EITHER THE LOVE OF MY FUCKING LIFE HATES ME IM SO FUCKING NUMB I CANT FUCKIBG BREATH, IM DROWNING AND SUFFOCATING SLOWLY AND I CANT MOVE IM JUST STILL!!!!"
I crawled up into a ball on my living room floor someone was knocking on my door I didnt answer I didnt want to answer I give up, I cant move I cant speak I cant do anything...
"Kenma, hey please open up I know we're not close but your still my friend and I honestly don't believe kuroo what so ever"
He kept knocking
... and knocking.... and knocking
"Kenma seriously if I knock one more time and you dont answer im going to come in"
He knocked one more time and he walked in...
"KENMA ARE YOU OK!? FUCK YOUR BLEEDING FROM YOUR STOMACH SHIT"
"FUCK FUCK FUCK"
He grabbed a towel and put it over my stomach with his hand and called akaashi with the other
"Hel-"
"AKAASHI HURRY UP AND GET O KENMAS HOUSE RIGHT FUCKING NOW-"
"WHAT WHY ARE YOU GUYS OK"
"HURRY THE FUCK UP AKAASHI THERES BLOOD EVERYWHERE"
" FUCK"
He hung up the phone and pressed the towel on my stomach ive never realized how sweet bokuto can be
"Hey hey cmon kenma you got this just stay awake ok just stay with me ok just just do that for me"
I tried to nod my head to him but it only came out halfway
Akaashi came a few minutes later barging in the doors
"KENMA HOLY SHIT-"
"Hey hey n-nooo stay awake ok you can't go to sleep you have to stay awake ok"
"FUCK CALL THE AMBULANCE"
"I-Im tired im g-going to take a s-small n-nap"
I couldn't see anything I could just hear akaashi and bokuto freaking out I feel in pain but at peace. I blacked out I couldn't see anything and I couldn't hear...
(Haha yea this one hit hard I wasn't in the best mood I was very depressed but thats okay anyways thatnkyou so much for the support I really appreciate it but author out-)
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Romancehi! This is my second book so im not that good but anywayheres the description THIS IS FINISHED -kenma and kuroo have been friends since they were little and they did everything together but kenma wanted to be a little more than friends but does ku...
