fifty shades of hudson

chapter 19

Rachel pov.

I feel some one waking me up. I open my eyes and see carole stand beside my bed.

"Hey". she said with a soft smile.

"Hi". I said weak.

"How are you feeling?". She asks.

"Tired". I said back.

"They put you on medication to calm you down"." Your body couldn't handle the stress". Carole said and took my hand.

"Wait.. how long did I sleep?". I asked panicking.

"Long"." But I woke you up"." Because you need to have time to say goodbye to finn"." I already did it"." Now it is your time"." In a hour they will stop the machines from working". She said with a broken voice and I cried.

"I can't believe it is happening". I said and she shakes her head.

"Me neither hunny". She said and she bent to me to hug me.

A nurse walks in.

"I will help you into the wheelchair". She said and I look at her.

"I can walk on my own" I said confused.

"The medication is so heavy your legs will not handle walking". The nurse said and I nodd. I feel sick to my stomach and nervous. This is going to be it. The last time before finn really is going to die. And I not ready. But I know I have too.

The nurse helps me into the wheelchair and together with carole she pushes me to finns room.

"Wait". I said before carole opends the door.

"I can't do this carole" I said upset.

She bents down in front of me.

"You need to hunny"." You need to say good bye"." Not just for him but also for yourself". She said and I nodd and she stands back up.

"I will be here when you are ready". She said and I nodd again. While the nurse opends the door and wheels me in. Their was finn.

My fifty shades of different persons, my fifty shades of hudson.

When I am beside finns bed the nurse walks away and I try to stand up from the wheel chair and climb on the bed and lay down next to finn.

"I need you finn"." I can't let you go like this"." In a hour you will be gone forever". I look at his face and lay my head in the crock of his neck.

"I can't say good bye to you"." That means I have to let you go"." But I can't"." We didn't finish what we started and we never talked about why you walked out the day of the playroom"." Sure cecile told me"." But I want to hear it from you"." I wish I had told you sooner but I really love you finn"." Please don't leave me". I said and cried. I touched his shirt and I knew he didn't like to be touched on the chest so avoided that and touched his arm and stroke it slowly. I felt myself calm down. That most be the medicine. I close my eyes. "I want to be with you finn"." Please wake up". And than the medicine took over and I fell a sleep cuddled up to finns lifeless body.

Finn pov.

I can't believe they are going to cut me off in a hour. What will happen? Because I can hear everything and I can think. Will I die? I don't want to die. Rachel fell a sleep next to me. I guess I think so. Because I can hear her slow breathing next to my ear. I feel great to have her next to me. Because I think I can't say good bye to her either. So I have to try to let my brain function to let me move my hands or open my eyes.

I concentrated first on my hands. I put every inner strengh into my right arm to pull it up. God damn it. move. Stupid arm. I try to move my fingers. And than I feel it. I I feel my fingers move a bit. I try to open my mouth to make a sound. Damn it is hard to let your brain tell you to do something. I focus and I can open my mouth a bit. Finally.. Unbelievable stupid body. Untill a hour before I die you function?

I try to speak.. I try to push words out of my mouth.

"...R.rrr..ach". I say really slow and soft.

I still can't open my eyes. But I hear rachel wake up.

"Finn?". I hear her say and I feel her move.

"Yy.es". I try to say and I hear her sigh.

"Omg, omg"." You are a life"." I will call for help". I hear her say happy. I hear her turn in the bed. I can't still feel a lot but I can feel my fingers a bit.

"They will come". Rachel said.

"Come on finn"." Try to open your eyes". She said soft.

"K". I only say.

"I love you finn"." Never leave me". I hear her say and I feel her against my face. I try to move my fingers and I guess she saw it because she grabbes my hand and squeezes it.

" I. .lll. ..ove..yo. .u". I speak slowly with every strengh. Than I hear her cry. I wish I could hug her.

Than I hear doctors come in and the voice of my mother.

"He spoke"." And look his fingers move" I hear rachel say happy.

"Okay miss berry"." We will run some tests"." I want you to wait in the waitingroom"." The nurse will help you". I hear the doctor say.

I don't want her to leave. I just got her back.

"N....o". I speak up.

"See he wants her to stay". I hear my mother say.

"Look he smiled".she said.

Did I? Ohh. Great. I didn't even notice.

"Fine she can stay". I hear the doctor say.

"Okay mister hudson"." You are a miracle"." We will run some tests"." And I want you to try open your eyes too". He said.

"K" I said.

Rachel pov.

I can't believe he is a life. After a month of waiting and almost losing him. He is back.

I am so happy. Even to happy to cry. The nurse put me back in my wheelchair. And carole and I sat at the side of finns bed while they did some tests with him.

We were waiting to open his eyes.

And than it happend. .. he opend his eyes.

I stood up and got all my strengh together, to run up to him and hug him.

"Miss berry"." We are not done" The doctor said but I ignored it.

"You are back". I said and we look into each others eyes. He even give me a little smile.

"Y. .ou. .look. ..be. .aut.. ifull". He said slowly and I giggled and hugged him again.

" You make me blush mister hudson" I wispered in his ear and looked into his eyes. And I saw the same spark I saw when we first had sex. I got off the bed and the nurse helped me back in my wheelchair.

"Okay you can continue now" I said to the doctor and he looked a bit mad but he continued the tests.