fifty shades of hudson

chapter 16

Rachel pov.

It has been a week and finn is still in a coma.

I had to explain to marley what happend. She was shocked but was still mad at him for treating me not right. I couldn't tell her everything what happend between him and I, it was still a secret. And I promised I wouldn't tell anyone. So I decided not to talk with her about it anymore. Instead I talked more now with cecile about finn.

She and I became closer and she was defently nicer than I imagined.

I was now with her on the phone at my work.

C- how are you doing?
R- could be better. The only thing I can think of that is was my fault.
C- no it wasn't rachel. You did what you thought what was best for the both of you. And like you said finn always was a fifty shades of different persons. He is a man who likes to take controle. In his work, friendship and relationships. He is a demanding man. He likes to boss people around. But he has a soft side. And that came out when you were with him in that room. He became emotional. Because you took control of what you wanted with the two of you. And I think he panicked. And than he called me when he left you. He said he loved you and that he couldn't do it. So don't blame yourself.
R- okay. I really hope he wakes up cecile. What he will never wake up? What will happen with his company by the way?
C- he will wake up. And I took it over from him with noah. He and I know how he worked. So as long as he is not here. We will do what ever it takes to lead the company.
R- (sighs) I feel so hopeless. I wish I could do something.
C- that you are with him every night after work is already enough for him rachel.
R- I know. But it is hard.
C- I know. But stay strong okay.
R- I will.
C- good. I have to go now. Speak to you soon.
R- bye cecile.
c- bye.

I hang up the phone and I see it is the end of my work day. I pack my things and leave. Marley was already free so I got in my car and drove to the hospital.

I walk to finns room and saw doctors talking with finns mom. She saw me and gave me a small smile and signed me to come in so I did.

"How is he?". I asked her.

"There is still no futher brain function". Carole said sad.

"Will he get better?". I asked one of the doctors.

"We don't know"." We will do everything we can"." But it is up to his body to heal and give a sign of life". He said and I nodd.

" We need to go futher"." If there are any questions"." You know were to find us". The doctor said to finns mom and she nodded and shaked their hands and than they walked out.

Carole turned to me and looked at me seriously.

"Rachel, there is something you need to know about finns past"." Because I don't think he told you". He said and she pulled me with her on a chair and I looked at her. While she took my hand in her hand.

"Finn his real dad"." When finn was little.. finns dad... raped him a couple times". She said with hurt in her voice and my eyes widen.

"What". I said shocked and she nodd her head.

"He has been through a lot since than"." He didn't trust people"." So when he became older he started to change"." Into a different person"." a dominant person". She said scanning my face and I nodd. Than I reallise carole didn't know that other secret. But this was way worse. His own dad. Unbelievable.

"Where is he now?". I asked him and carole looked to finn.

"He is in jail". She said and turned back to me.

"I wanted you to know"." Because you deserve to know him"." And why he is this way". She said and I nodd and she hugged me.

"I am so sorry" I said upset and she let me go and took my face into her hands.

"Don't say sorry"." You changed him into a better person the minute you walked in". She kissed my forehead and smile.

"I am going"." I have been here all day" " take care rachel" she said and I give her smile.

"Bye carole" I said and with that she walked away and I turned my head back to finn.

I sat closer to him and took his hand in mine again.

"I miss you". I said and than I felt tears welling up in my eyes and let them fall down my cheek.

I go with my other hand over his cheek softly stroking him. "Come back to me". I wisper softly.

I lay my head on the side of the bed still holding his hand tight. And than I feel how tired I am.

I close my eyes. "Come back to me". I wisper before I fall a sleep.

I wake up when I feel something move. I slowly open my eyes and sit up and see finns hand move in my hand. I look at finns face and I see his eyes fluther open.

I can't help but cry.

"You are back". I said between the tears.

"I am a controle freak miss berry"." I will do everything to get what I want". He said with a smile and I can't help but giggle. I let go off his hand and stand up and kiss him. He gives me a kiss back, he closes his eyes again.

Than all the machines start to make noise and I look at the screen.

"No, no finn"." Don't die" I cry when I see a flat line.

" Don't you leave me". I scream while I cry. And shake finns body.

I wake up with heavy breathing.

"Omg, just a bad dream". I said to myself when I see finn still laying in his bed.

I try to get control of my own breathing.

"Stupid bad dream". I said once more. While I look at finns hand still in mine.

"Don't you dare leave me finn hudson". I said to him and look up at his face and squeezed his hand.

Than I feel a soft squeez back in my hand. It felt so real. I shake it off. "I am still dreaming". I said to myself. "It is all in my mind".

Than I feel it again and starre at my hand where finns hand his. Than I see and feel it again. Finn's fingers move in mine hand.

"Finn?". I said.