Wilhemina venable- never felt (𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚑𝚎𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚊 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛)

Chapter 2 - radioactive

𝗧𝗪: 𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗼𝗳 𝗮𝗻𝘅𝗶𝗲𝘁𝘆, 𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳 𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗺 𝘀𝗰𝗮𝗿𝘀,𝗰𝗮𝗹𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗲 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴, 𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗼𝗻 𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳 𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗺 𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵𝘁𝘀, 𝗯𝗹𝗼𝗼𝗱 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗱𝗲𝗽𝗿𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗼𝗿 𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗱𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿. 𝗽𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗰𝗮𝘂𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗶𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗮𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝗯𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘀𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝗶 𝘂𝗿𝗴𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱. 𝗕𝘂𝘁 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗶 𝗵𝗼𝗽𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗲𝗻𝗷𝗼𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗲𝗿. :)

As you stood there in the silence you hear a stern voice that could only be mistaken for
Ms. Mead and indeed it was. A hard knock on the door and You walked over to open it.
Ms. Venable stood there with her cane and
Ms. Mead not far behind, just as you were about to ask a question Ms. Venable looks at you, in her cold voice and says,

"at dinner there was a spike in radioactivity we have been going around and scanning for anyone it could be who has been outside, and you better hope we don't find out it's you."

As she finished her sentence you looked at her and Ms. Mead and gestured for them to come in so they could test you. You moved towards the middle of the room and allowed Ms. Mead to come closer and scan you she runs the metal close to your body and you feel Ms. Venable's ever burning gaze attracted to you like a moth to a flame.

She is interrupted when Ms. Mead clears her throat and mutters "clean." She exits and waits to be followed by venable. She looks back at you for a moment and says in that voice of hers "thank you for cooperating you did better than some of the others" and leaves without another word.

You finally let out the breath you had been holding in the entire time that search was done and the anxiety started to overwhelm you something as little as the butterfly's in your stomach turned into a whirling storm.

Calming yourself down feels almost impossible as your breathing starts to grow more intense to the point where you start to whine in pain from the sharp breaths and you quickly start to feel sick to your stomach. You wondered why they were doing rounds so late and if they thought you had done something and as you continue to wonder your brain goes into overdrive and starts to think of all the worst possibilities.

Another knock on your door seemed to make you more anxious but calm you down at the same time and as you frantically tried to collect yourself you hear Mallory say something,

"(Y/N)??I can hear funny noises are you okay?" You heard her, and you wanted to say something to relieve her panic but no response came from your mouth "I'm coming in"

Mallory opens the door and is quick to you when she sees the tears that had fallen down your face from the pain. "(Y/N)!? What's wrong??" You started to feel better now she was here but your stomach continues to churn as you speak, "I'm fine I was just a little anxious that's all"

Mallory doesn't seem to believe you but you continue to reassure her until she does. Once Mallory has spoken with you for the night she smiles and leaves the room with a soft "goodnight"

You aren't quite sure how you feel now tensed from bottling it up but numb because of how far you pushed your feelings down and are unable to bring them back up again.

You sit for a moment as you remember the scars on your arms and legs and trace your fingers over them trying to remember your therapists words from before the apocalypse. "You can't carry this all by yourself (Y/N), you need to let your emotions out at some point"