what hurts the most (poetry)

the hole in his heart

from the years i've known you,
it's like there's something you need that is missing,

no it's not drugs,
but the love you needed

i never got the chance to show you,
but i wanna fix the hole in your heart

you out this tough man look,
but i see right thru you,

i was 14 when i first met you,
but i didn't notice anything different till i turned 16,

keep in mind,
we are 3 years apart,

so after you graduated,
there was just a shift i saw,

you started turning on people and telling yourself that,
that this life you call "basic" isn't meant for you,

you look at yourself in the mirror and you don't see yourself anymore,

i mean i look at you now,
and you're dead to me

but at the time,
i thought you were the love of my life,
so i thought if i were to help you,

maybe you will change
and be the man i want you to be

well,
you can't help someone who can't help themselves and this example shows

there's such a difference between us,

even a million miles apart,

nothing would be different,
cause you're still the same man you were
5 years ago

at least i can say that i tried,
but enough is enough

i didn't fail you,
you failed yourself

the hole in your heart,
maybe it'll never be healed,

but maybe you'll learn to live with it
like i have...