My love, My life, My purpose

Part 11

2 years had passed me and Alan were now in a serious relationship and were really happy together, Lois was still with Noah who still doing this series or something I don't know.
Alan was a bit stressed as of late I did ask him about it but he kept avoiding the conversation
" look Alan I know somethings up, you can talk to me about anything"
" I've been accepted into a dramatic arts school"
" That's brilliant Alan"
" in Chelsea, England"
" England, wow I..."
" I don't want to leave you"
"Alan you have to take this"
" no I don't I need to be here with you, your my world Ellie I can't leave you"
" well What if you don't need to"
" what"
" what if I come with you"
" you'll be leaving your family I couldn't ask you to do that"
" your my family Alan, I don't need anyone else"
" but"
" no buts I don't care what my family thinks I can't leave you and you can't leave me so let's do it let's go to Chelsea I'm nearly finished my last year here anyway"
" if you sure"
" I've never been more sure about anything in my life, I better go tell the band"
" Ellie"
" yeah"
" thank you"
" you don't need to thank me I love you Alan and if moving to England means I get to stay with you then so be it"
I Walked to the music room with my guitar
" Hey els sit down we're playing..."
" guys"
" some Beatles and everything"
" GUYS"
" what"
" Alan's been accepted into a dramatic arts School in England"
" oh Ellie I'm sorry"
" there's more, I've decided to move to England with him"
" WHAT"
" ARE YOU CRAZY"
" NO IM NOT CRAZY, I LOVE HIM SO IF I HAVE TO MOVE TO ENGLAND TO SEE HIM THEN THATS WHAT I'LL DO"
" MOM IS GONNA GO MENTAL"
" WHO CARES WHAT MOM THINKS, I HAVE TO DO THIS"
My mates started to cry
" you can't leave us bud, what about this band"
" I'm sorry I have to go, I'm not leaving yet anyway I'll be going during the summer"
" Els please don't do this"
" I have to Jess you would do the same for you know who"
" but England it's so far"
" look I don't know how many more times I have to say it I have to go I love him, he's the reason I am as happy as I am"
" It's not gonna be the same without you"
" I know but this is for the best, I have to go"
I walked out the class and met Alan in the cafeteria
" how did they take it"
" not good"
" see you can't do this it's too much to ask"
" no no I have to do this, I have to come with you"
" there's so much for you here your band all your friends, family"
" Alan your friends and family are here as well and as for my music that can be done wherever"
" your really serious about this aren't you"
" of course I can't let you go alone I just won't"
" I love you more than you'll ever know"
" as will I Alan"
We held hands for the entire day when the end came I was nervous I was on edge and Alan picked up on it
" your nervous about telling your parents aren't you"
" yes but that doesn't mean I'm having second thoughts"
" noted"
" could you come with me"
" is that a good idea"
" probably not but I would make it easier"
" well if it comforts you then I'm there"
" thanks Alan"
" don't mention it"
I told Alan to just follow me back to the house and he did we arrived at my house holding hands as we walked up the porch to the front door
" Hey chum oh Alan nice to see you"
" you too Mrs and Mr Morrice"
" Everything alright Els"
" Alan's been accepted into a dramatic arts school in England"
" oh that's a long way away"
" yeah and I've decided to go with him"
" WHAT"
" YOU CANT DO THAT"
" I CAN AND I WILL"
" NO YOU WILL NOT"
" WHAT YOU GONNA LOCK ME IN MY ROOM OR SOMETHING"
" YOUR NOT MOVING TO ENGLAND WITH HIM"
" HE HAS A NAME"
" look maybe I should go"
" no please Alan don't leave"
" MAYBE HE SHOULD"
" no mom he's staying"
" look Mrs Morrice I never ment to cause any grief"
" GRIEF YOUR TAKING MY DAUGHTER AWAY FROM ME"
" ACTUALLY HES NOT DOING ANYTHING IT WAS MY IDEA"
" BUT HE TOLD YOU HE WAS LEAVING DIDNT HE"
" I told Ellie because I love her, I didn't want to leave and for her to think this relationship was just a fling to me"
I smiled at Alan, he acknowledged and rubbed his neck
" you know what Alan GET OUT"
" MOM"
" NO ELLIE IM FED UP OF THIS"
" FINE BUT IF HE LEAVES THEN I LEAVE"
" no Ellie it's okay I'll go"
" no you've done nothing wrong"
" dad what do you think"
" I think that If this is what you want then I can't stop you, you seem like a nice guy Alan and you seem to care a lot for Ellie so I'm not gonna stand in your way"
" thank you Mr Morrice I won't let you or Ellie down I promise"
" GREG YOUR MENT TO BE BACKING ME UP"
" I'm sorry Nadine but if she wants to move to England with Alan then I'm not going to stop her"
" FINE MOVE, LEAVE YOUR WHOLE LIFE HERE"
" right I'm going to go, I really am sorry"
" alan wait"
He had already closed the door
" no let him go hopefully he'll drive to England and I'll never see him again"
" wow really thanks for that thanks a lot"
I ran out the door to try and catch Alan
" ALAN, ALAN WAIT"
" Look Ellie I really love you but I can't ask you to do this it will destroy your family and I don't want to be the cause of that, I made a right mess of this I'm sorry I should have done better"
" No Alan no, you haven't mucked up anything if my family can't comprehend my love for you then they have to deal with that, I'm coming with you Alan"
" Ellie you can't it will destroy the relationships you have here and it will be hard for you to leave it all behind"
" Alan enough I'm coming with you I don't care what my mum says, you heard my dad it's clear we love each other"
" I just don't want you to move with me and then for me to end up hurting you"
" hurt me, Alan you could never, please come back inside we can talk about this"
" no it's okay I love you"
" Alan please"
" I'll call you"
With that he drove off I was furious I ran back to my house slamming the front door as I walked in
" happy now thanks to you he feels like he Fucked up"
" WELL HE HAS HE SHOULD NEVER HAD TOLD YOU HE WAS LEAVING"
" AND WHAT JUST LEAVE AND BREAK MY HEART"
" IT WOULD BE BETTER THAN YOU MOVING TO ENGLAND"
" wow, that's it I've had enough"
I grabbed my coat and left the house
" WHERE DO YOY THINK YOUR GOING"
" OUT DONT TRY TO FOLLOW ME"
I got in the car and sped off to the beach, tears rolled down my eyes not because of the fight but because of the way me and Alan had left things, I was worried I didn't want him to think that I didn't want to go with him I wanted him to know that I was prepared to do anything to keep this relationship going. I got to the beach and sat on the bonnet of my car it was peaceful, the sound of the waves filled me ears until it was interrupted by a voice
" hey"
" hey Jess, how did you know I was here"
" I went by your house your mom said you were out by the tone in her voice I figured something had blew up so I guessed you'd be here"
" I told them I was moving to England"
I started to cry
" els what happened"
" Alan was there my mom went mental at him he left thinking he was just a fuck up and that I didn't want to go with him"
" oh Els have you called him"
" it keeps going to voicemail"
" try again he should know your serious about this"
I dialled Alan's number and prayed for him to pick up
" hey sorry I can't come to the phone right now but if you leave a message I'll get right back to you"
" Alan it's me, please call me back when you get this, we need to talk, I never wanted for you to think you've fucked up, you haven't I want to come with you, regardless for what everyone thinks, I hope your okay love you"
" voicemail huh"
" I'm really worried"
" Els isn't that his car"
It was Alan's car was parked outside the ice cream parlour I walked In and spotted Alan sitting at a table crying
" Alan"
" Ellie I"
" come here"
I sat down beside Alan and hugged him
" I'm so sorry I never ment for you to end up upset"
" it's not your fault Ellie"
" look at me Alan, you've done nothing wrong, you were only looking out for me"
" Im going to phone the college tell them I'm not going"
" No no your not your going to England and I'm coming with you"
" thank you"
" for what"
" for loving me like I love you"
" Always"