When people talk to me over text or even just in real life, I can be so much like I'm fine or even extremely happy.
But even sometimes I'm really sitting crying while being that happy, like right now I'm crying in a bathroom.
I even scare myself sometimes.
Once, I had slit my wrist really badly.
My mom saw it while I tried to hide it but I bled so much that it floated out.
She said "Emma I thought you had stopped, I thought you were happy, I thought you didn't feel like that anymore"
I kept crying and looked away because I couldn't look her in the eyes.
She then repeated "I thought you were happy" and I turned around, stopped crying, smiled big and looked happy and said "is this what you want to see mom? Ofcause I'm happy. This is what you want right?" And then I started crying again and looked down. I've never seen my mom so scared.
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To be or Not to be
غير روائيIf you want to know me... Here is youre chance. Go ahead. This is where i open my heart to everybody and my Mind just comes out with things i Think.