To be or Not to be

My husband

I feel so bad cause I don't think I've written a chapter about my husband yet, even when I'm this close to death so I thought "better do it now" so well my husband is Oliver Sykes (or well, in a few years he is) and I think many people know who he is, and if you don't like him, I just lost everything in this fucking world for you, you fucking slender bitch. He is just so so so perfect in every way and I literally sit every day and look all drop dead through just to see him modeling and I say good morning and kiss goodnight to my pictures, I'm not obsessed. It's called love. My kind of love. Let me be happy for this one thing. 😻❤️ he has those puppy eyes you can lose yourself in, those lips that just makes people need to kiss them, the cutest smile in the world, the best humor yet so fucking cold and serious at times and hates so many human beings, a laugh that you can't keep yourself from smiling like an idiot from, the way his nose goes a bit up when he's offended or extremely happy and proud, the way his lip curls more up in one side when he's dreaming a good dream, the way his lips part not just slightly but not like an alligator just 2-3 cm. when he sleeps, his tattoos, that he is super slim and healthy but then he still has those big arms that makes me melt and a great body shape, the way his cheekbones show, how he almost closes his eyes when he smiles or laughs, his small dances at random moments drunk or not, at a party or in the streets, anywhere, the way he admits things easily like its nothing but when you look good in his eyes you can see the hurt he feels by talking about it, yet he doesn't really trust people and actually doesn't open much up, that actually he hates wearing a beanie but he does it a lot because he doesn't want us to see him have a bad hair day, the way he just sits down on the floor out of nowhere in a song while being on stage like nothing special is going on but still he's eyes just shows how he looks over the crowd with love, passion and so proud, when he does that thing with his arm almost every time he makes a growl right after a scream and he jumps with one leg higher than the other, his accent, that he really just wants to chill and talk with fans but he's sad that they seem like they just go for autograph and a picture, how he used to self harm so he's extremely protective for his fans, that he once tried to do suicide, not because of being "emo" as he was bullied with but because he just wanted to numb the pain, how he talks about His dog Oskar and if someone doesn't know who it is he just gets so hyper and puts a picture of Oskar in their faces all "this is my Oskar!", he is so Pervy as you can see in the picture of him.... xD I love that, he looks so sexy when he licks his lips, when he sweats on stage it isn't dripping from him but is just enough to make his hair be a bit wet and when his lips part and he just looks exhausted but still ready to just gahaggahagahahagahagag I'm dying okay it's sexy as motherfucking...... To be honest I'll just say it: I imagine he looks like that while having sex, done.

I could keep on but I don't think you guys will read the whole chapter if I do so bye headbanger's and mono's luv chu!!!