tw: brief mention of relative's death
2 hours later
izzy's pov
i still haven't replied to indy. thankfully my abnormal breathing and racing heart has stopped somehow now. i'm slightly concerned about it but i've got bigger issues to deal with at the moment.. like what do i say to a message like the one indy sent me? she's gonna know somethings wrong considering i usually reply the second she messages me.
i type down what first comes to my head - which to be honest - doesn't feel like the best idea, however it's the only thing my mind can think of at this time.
izzy: hey.. i'm sorry i've been kinda distant.. yesterday my mums great aunt died. i wasn't close to her, i've only seen her a couple times but my mum was.. i guess i'm just worried about my mum im sorry..
twice. i apologised two times. perhaps one for being distant; and the other for lying to my best friend. obviously, it's a lie, and yeah i feel bad for making up a story of one of my relatives dying to prevent me confessing my confusion to the one person i should be able to talk to about anything, but my mum's great aunt isn't a real person, so that fact consoles me from the guilt. from that aspect at least. i still feel horrendously guilty for lying to indy. but i don't know what else to do...
not even a minute later, my phone chimes and - as i expected - indy had text back. i was scared, the kind of scared that twists your insides into a huge knot, wringing your intestines together, while somehow simultaneously tugging your throat in on itself.
to my relief, she was not mad. she somehow bought the lie? i guess i'm a lot better at lying over text.
indy: awhh izzy, don't worry! you don't need to apologize, i was just concerned about you. tell your mum i'm sorry for her loss.. i'm here if you need me, any time, any where. i'm here <3
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