The Useless Omega: Kim Namjoon x Reader

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Y/N POV

It has been a couple days since I had seen Namjoon. Last I heard from him he said he had to do some important stuff for his dad, pertaining to his responsibilities as the Head Alphas son. I understand that, but I had to admit I am getting a little needy. In more ways than one. Every time I think of him and his big d- what no stop. I reprimand myself. Anyways, whenever I think about... that... I feel my nether regions tingle slightly, and it makes me squirm, wanting some friction. For the most part though, I suck it up and ignore it. The worse is when it comes randomly throughout the day, and I have to stop and concentrate to get it to go away. The girls notice, but don't say anything to me.

Another day is finished and I walk home. When I get to the driveway I see Namjoon's car and I instantly speed up, wanting to see him. I bust through the door and see him sitting on the couch with Jin and some other random guy? I ignore it and kick my shoes off and basically launch myself into Namjoon's arms, taking in his calming scent. Oh how I miss that scent. Namjoon's chuckles and hugs me back tightly.

"Did you miss me pup?" He asks and I nod profusely, still burying my nose in his scent gland. "I missed you to."

He smiles and kisses me on the forehead. I finally get enough of his scent and shift so that I'm sitting beside him. I tense up, now noticing that random guy as being an Alpha, my face turns from happy into worrying and I push myself further into Namjoon's side. Namjoon notices and chuckles lightly.

"Y/N this is Jung Hoseok, Jin's mate." He explains and my worry goes away slightly. I nod politely at him, still to scared to say anything. We stay watching tv for a couple minutes and then Namjoon says we're going on a date. I look at him quizzically.

"Surprise!" Is all he says before dragging me off the couch and making me put my shoes and coat on.

We get into his car and drive for 20 minutes listening to some random music. It's almost dark now and it seems as if we are driving pretty far out of town. I get curious, but don't say anything. We eventually stop on a dirt road, and Namjoon gets out of the car, me following him. I trudge around and hug him, trying to stay warm.

"Baby lets go for a run." He says out of the blue. I furrow my brows. "In our wolf forms." He says and I tense up and leave his arms.

I don't like my wolf form. There's nothing wrong with it, I just prefer to stay human. I only shift if I'm in trouble and need to get out of a place very very fast. The last time I was in my wolf form was the day before Namjoon found me. I honestly hadn't even thought about shifting since then. I only shifted on the run to protect myself.

I fidget and look at the ground and Namjoon approaches me. He lifts up my chin gently with his hand. Our eyes meet and he can see the worry in them, also noticing that my scent spiked in anxiousness.

"Baby what's wrong?" He asks softly, searching my eyes for an answer.

"Don't like wolf form." I whisper, looking away. His hand drops from my chin and into his pockets.

"Why?" He questions, voice as soft as ever.

"Only shift when in trouble." I mumble and Namjoon nods.

"Why won't you shift now?" He asks, a little sternly this time. I resist the urge to flinch.

"It's just your wolf form, no need to get pressed about this." He snaps and my eyes widen in fear I start backing up slowly.

"C'mon Y/N we've fucked before, showing your wolf is nothing compared to that." He growls and my scent skyrockets in fear. Namjoon finally notices my tenseness and his eyes soften.

"Baby I'm sorry I didn't mean to." He apologizes approaching me, but I turn around and make my way to my side of the car before he can do anything. I get in and shut the door and Namjoon follows sighing.

"Home." Is all I say and he starts the car up.

The whole ride feels like hours, and the awkwardness fills the car and makes it hard to breath. We finally get back to the cabin and I hop out, not even looking at Namjoon. I can feel his gaze on me, but he doesn't do anything. I walk in the door, tears threatening to fall from my eyes.

I ignore Jin and Hoseoks greetings and walk right into Taes room, not caring about what he's doing. He just seems to be playing on his phone and I fall onto his bed, immediately clinging to him, not saying a word. He puts down his phone and looks at me with worry.

"What happened Y/N?" He asks softly and I just shake my head not wanting to talk.

He doesn't push it and lets me shift so half of my body is on top of him, my arms slung around his chest, and him lying on his back, arms protectively over me. I let out soft tears and Tae just hugs me tighter, rocking back and forth slowly in an attempt to soothe me. It doesn't take long before I fall asleep on his chest, worry still clouding my mind.

I get that in hindsight, it shouldn't be a big deal to show him my wolf form. But I'm still not fully comfortable with it. The fact that Namjoon got mad at me sent me into a panicked spiral. I'm not angry at him, I just got scared. He has never raised his voice at me before, and I am afraid that Namjoon might do something to hurt me because I refused to shift. It's stupid, I know he would never hurt me. It was a momentary feeling of panic, but it consumed me.

I don't want to upset him, and it makes me even more anxious as the thought of him leaving me crosses my mind. I don't want him to leave me completely, but I don't want to see him after what just happened. The lack of attention I'm getting...down there... makes me want him even more and I am so confused as to if I am feeling horny, anxious, sad or a weird mix of all three.