Luke Alvez And Spencer Reid One Shots

4. What Hurts the Most

(my valentine part 2)

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me.
I can take a few tears now and then, and just let 'em out,
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though,
Going on with you gone still upsets me.
There are days every now and again
I pretend I'm okay,
But that's not what gets me.

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could've been
And not seeing that love in you
Is what I was trying to do..
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6 months later

"Oh come on Coop!" I stump my feet like a child, "you can send anyone else there, this is ridiculous!" I look at him smugly. " You know very well that I'm not gonna go back there in any circumstances, even if its life and death situation!" I turn my head, not wanting anyone to see my tears that threatening to roll down. I've been good on keeping distance and tried my best not to crossed path with anyone from Hotch team.

"Maddie, i know i can send anyone there, but the expertise in this case unfortunately is you" Sam Cooper pat my back "i have no one else i can trust it with but you. And you showed me every time this kind of problem occurs, you always take care of it better than anyone else"

"That's what i mean! That's the point, Coop!" I still argued "better than anyone else, that's mean someone can take it away from me!" I growled in frustration "you guys back me up will you!" The rest of my team just sit there and watch me trying to pull winning words with the one and only Sam Cooper. They're chuckled and said nothing.
"What is my karma to stuck with this wicked team of all people!" I walk away angrily, snatches my bag and keys "I'm outta here!"

"You're welcome to switch with the other BAU teams!"
Cooper yelling

"I'm gladly will!" I closed the door with loud bang. But second later i get back inside and give Coop deathly glare "Don't you dare transfers me to that team!!!"

And with that, the team burst laughing. God i hate my team!

The next day, i arrived on the 6th floor, walk in directly to Hotch office but he's not there. Damnit!
Then i saw Rossi just out from his office, "Rossi!" I called and run to him

"oh Maddie, what are you doing here?"

"My wicked supervisor sent me here again to help Garcia with one of your case i familiar with"
Rossi cant help but laughing "and i need to check in with Hotch"

"Hotch is not here at the moment, Emily incharge for now, and there's she is" Emily just arrived and saw me talking with Rossi, she smiled and walking faster to our direction.

"Maddie, good to have you here, Cooper called and he said you're familiar with this kind of UnSub" she said while dragging me to her office, motion me to sit in front of her and she took a bunch of files and hand it to me. I flipped it few times and told her i need to read this carefully before i can say anything. She nodded and let me use one of the table outside, and i chose the far corner.

I emptying everything in my bag, put on my headphones and start my playlists. I start to read the files one by one and focused on it, in need to get this over with, so i can go back to the warehouse fast. This place really make me suffocating. And i mean literally.
I still have that jumpy heart, i know. And i push it far into the back of my head. But they said you cant get rid of that love easily. Well it's true. It was hard but never impossible.
I shake my head and start to read the second files. Write down anything suspicious and out of the UnSub MO details.

I have no idea how long I've been here, when my stomach growled, i know i must be missed my lunch again. Gina usually drag me to eat. But here, there's no Gina. And i specifically ask Emily to forbid anyone to come and talk to me while I'm working on the papers. It's new habit i found comforting and make me work efficiently and focused.