Falling for my enemy

What's wrong?

My POV
It was already morning.
We were on our way to the shop. It's Saturday, I'm not looking forward to today. Its gonna be a stressful day..

There wasn't much to prepare. We had already the day before opened all packages and put the groceries neatly in their place. At least there wasn't that much work to do..

More and more costumers were coming in. Both of us worked hard today, and it went surprisingly good.

Our shift ended.

I all of a sudden get a text from Zara.

Zara:  There is this contest in our school, it's about the person who presents the best presentation that wins. Everyone can join. We should team up?

Y/N: I don't really feel like joining, I'm sorry.

"What is it?" Jungkook asks.

I show him the text.

"Why not?" He says.
"I don't know.. I feel like I'll ruin it. Zara is so good, yet I'm just a beginner at this stuff"
He sighs.
"Can you stop"
"Stop what.." I say, knowing damn well what he means.
"Stop trying to be like Zara"

"What?"
I honestly don't know what I expected him to say, but definitely not this.

"Zara this, and Zara that"

He pauses.

He walks up to me and puts his hands on my shoulders, just like yesterday. 

But this time he's closer to me.

"Enough...enough y/n" he whispers.
"I wish you could see yourself from my perspective"

I'm still looking straight into his eyes.

"I'm trying.." I say.
"I know, and I can see it, but you'll have to try even harder, promise me?"

"I promise."

He leans closer to my face. My heart beats even faster, I could feel my palms sweating.
He's so close.. I can feel his breath.

Is this really happening?

Should I continue.. or back off, just like yesterday.

My thoughts are running fast, I don't know what to do. I want it to happen, but at the same time I can't.

It doesn't feel right. Not because I'm not attracted to him, because I am—
Wait, I am?

I really am... then what's stopping me? Why do I feel like I can't? What's WRONG?

I yet again, lean backwards.

He stops.

I walk slowly away to the exit door.

"Should we...go home?" I point to the car.
"Uh, yeah... yeah of course" he says.

I felt like crying. Why couldn't I do it? What's stopping me..because I clearly want it.

Want him.