me and sandy were sitting around the table eating lunch "this house is so empty what the fuck where is everyone" she smiled at me "I don't know, but I wanna hear about you what's your story with the fucked up bready bunch" she said signalling to the ceiling I put some omelette in my mouth and laughed "ummm well frank is my wanker of a dad not the I think of him as a dad but whatever, he turns up shit face drunk and me Fiona and Debbie used to have to drag him either to his bed or if he was being a dick or out the fucking house, I turned 11 tried smoking and alcohol and here we are" I said ironically taking a sip of my beer she laughed at me and pointed to the beer "love that" I looked her up and down "we've got the house to ourselves you wanna have some fun" she asked me chugging her beer "fuck yes" I responded whilst finishing off mine she grabbed my hand and pulled me upstairs. We didn't go downstairs till the next day.
the early morning
"sandy said she was gonna be here like 20 mins ago were the fuck is she we were supposed to go grab guns" mickey mumbled through coffee. lip wobbled down the stairs "its four in the fucking morning what are you doing up" Ian laughed "Mickey is waiting for sandy they were gonna go steal some guns or something" lip grabbed a diaper for Fred "sandy and Chris are asleep upstairs" Ian turned around to face mickey "well go look I am not going up there I'm on fucking crutches" Mickey smiled in his passive aggressive Micky way" fine" when he came back down he looked genuinely traumatized "they were spooning" Ian laughed "huh a lesbian and bi-sexual left alone in the house what the fuck did you think was gonna happen Mick"
the morning
BANG! BANG! BANG! "Chris" I mumbled back at her "Ian's at the door he's banging on about some guy called Dylan" the sound of that name had me sitting up immediately "shit, give me a jumper quick" I said, she threw me her jumper and was getting dressed as I was already down the stairs I opened the door and screamed in Dylan's face "leave me the fuck alone or I will shoot you and you fucking know I never miss" Dylan looked me in the eyes and laughed he laughed at me "why the fuck are you laughing" I yelled "because I know you would never hurt me" he said. I took a step forward and whispered in his ear "if your allowed to hurt me, I'm allowed to hurt you" then I slammed the door in his face and only when I heard his car drive away did I actually exhale. I turned around to see Micky, Sandy, Ian and Lip as well as Franny at the kitchen table. "you want me to shoot him" Mickey said , he was the only person who wasn't in my family who knew about Dylan. I smiled as Ian handed me a cup of coffee " just let him go he's a dick anyway" I said everyone was looking at me sympathetically but Sandy just looked confused and I really didn't want to have to talk about Dylan with her yet "Okay enough with the sympathetic looks new topic of conversation" I said waving my hand "okay, lets talk about how you and Sandy slept together" Mickey said, at that point it hit me that we hadn't exactly been discreet especially since I was wearing her jumper. "Okay new topic" Sandy said sitting down next to me and pouring coffee in to her mug "absolutely fucking not my baby has been crying all night I need some sort of drama to keep me awake" said Lip walking down the stairs "okay we slept together everyone move on now please, I wanna know who the fuck Dylan is" said Sandy "you weally dwont" said Franny "okay so the baby can know but I cant" she said again "he always comes right when I'm having a good life, just fuck him" I said getting really pissed as I grabbed a beer from the fridge "it 11 am god Chris have some restraint" Carl said as he came out of the basement and took my beer out of my hand "right fine you want to know ill tell you later but I've got to meet my parole officer now" I said walking out the house "you've still got my jumper" Sandy yelled behind me "you can have it back later" I yelled and slammed the door. I took a massive breath and popped a cigarette in my mouth as I started to walk to my parole officers office.
"so who the fuck is Dylan" Sandy said Mickey turned back around "I'm sorry we really cant she will tell you when she's ready" Sandy finished her coffee and stood up "the one time I need you to be a dick your not" she said running back upstairs.
