I am afraid of not making a difference.
So I pity myself.
On the days I can make myself wake
I say sorry in the mirror for holding myself so accountable.
I know I shouldn't.
I shouldnt say sorry or hold myself accountable
to the energy my mind has created.
I know that what I feel is abstract and unnecessary
So if you were to ask me if I was feeling okay
I would say yes!
With a smiling face and upturned eyes.
Don't get me wrong
I know there are people that understand.
That are here for me.
But why never the ones that I need.
and I mean
need.
