A better place

Chapter 10

Clarke's P.O.V.

Raven and I are going to wait for Lexa to arrive. But it's so boring to just sit and watch Finn and Dorothy having dinner so we decide to spy on them.

Finn helps Dorothy to put her coat on and they were just about to go home, until they hear something.

,,Claaaaarke" I hear Lexa shout, all the people in the restaurant gives her a quick look and continues to eat their food. Is she crazy?

Dorothy walks to Lexa and I hear her ask if Clarke is here. Lexa doesn't know what to say, so she just stands in there without moving.

,,I'm here" I stand up from my table and go to her.

Finn sees me and comes here too. He doesn't look ashamed. It looks like I've never been his girlfriend.

Raven stands up too and goes to him. Here it goes. She slaps him in a face, Finn gasps. The smile on Raven's face turns to the biggest smile I've ever seen.

,,What the hell Dor? He has a girlfriend! You can't just go to a date with Clarke's boyfriend." Lexa yells at Dorothy.

,,I didn't know! I know you might not believe, but he told me about Clarke just before you came in here. And how do you know about this date?" Dorothy asks looking at Lexa, but I'm sure she know how.

,,Were you spying on us? What's wrong with all of you? Can't you just give us some privacy?" Finn finally starts to speak.

,,What's wrong with us? What the fuck is wrong with you. We were all good, and then you suddenly go to a date with someone else? Why the fuck would you cheat on me? Wasn't I good enough in bed for you?"

,,That's the problem Clarke! You only use me for sex! You never want to go on a date, you never say that you love me. When was the last time you were the one that texted me? You never text me first. You don't show me anything, Clarke!" I feel the tears in my eyes and when I'm about to say that I'm sorry he doesn't let me.,,No Clarke, I don't want to hear your apologies, you are not good enough for me! You don't deserve any of the boys you slept with! We are done for all!"

I turn around and run off.

I feel Lexa grab my hand,,Clarke, you drank beer, you can't drive."

,,Don't tell me what to do!" She tries to say something, but I cut her off,,Leave me alone Lexa. Don't touch me!"

She looks at me with a horrified face and lets go of my hand.

I turn around and walk away.

Once I get home and calm down, I decide to call my mom.

,,Hello swetie"

,,Hi mom, how are you?"

,,Everything's perfect, we are going to zoo park tomorrow."She sounds so excited, it makes my heart warm.

,,I wish that I could be able to be with you" I say and start to sob.

,,Clarke, baby what's wrong?"

,,Finn cheated on me, he said I don't deserve him." I start to cry harder.

,,Honey, please tell me what happened?" I tell her everything that happened this evening

,,Everything is going to be okay, honey. Remember that boy, Octavia's brother?"

,,Bellamy, yes." I answer, but there is no chance that I'm going to be with him. He's only friend. Nothing more.

,,I think he's a nice guy. You should try to get with him Clarke. I'm sure that he won't leave you like Finn did."

,,Thanks mom, but I don't have a single feeling for him. I'll try to talk with more boys. The ones I haven't slept with of course."

I can see my mom smile trough the phone. We say goodnight to each other, and she hangs up.

And then I remember Lexa. Fuck. She was so kind for me all the time, and today she tried to help me and I pushed her away. Maybe I really don't deserve all those boys. I always push people away.

Clarke: Hi, why aren't you home yet?

*Read*

Clarke; Lexa, I'm starting to get worried, where are you?

*Read*

Clarke: If you won't be here in twenty minutes, I will kill you:))

*Read*

And then the door finally opens.

,,Hi, where were you?" I ask, but Lexa just goes to brush her teeth and gets into bed.

She turns away from me and tries to fall asleep.

,,Lexa I know I'm a bitch." With that she turns to me. Maybe I really am one?,, I'ms so sorry for pushing you away when you just tried to help. I shouldn't have yelled at you. I'm a terrible person. I'm so sorry. I don't know what I was thinking, my head was full of those words Finn said to me, and I didn't know what I said. Please forgive me Lexa. I may sound like a total ass but I really need a friend like you right now.I'm so so sorry."

,,Okay." Is all she says.

,,Okay?"

,,Okay" She repeats.

We say goodnight to each other, and I turn to wall and bury my face in a pillow so I can cry silently.

But the sound goes louder and louder.

,,Come here Clarke." I turn around and see Lexa tapping on the side of her bed.

I qiuckly stand up and get in her bed.

,,You know Clarke. Everything he said is lies. You deserve someone way better then him. Even tough I've never been in a relationship with a guy, I'm telling you, he doesn't deserve you.

I feeze. She never been in a relationship with a guy? Does that mean that she's...Yep it totally does.

I put my head on her chest and she freezes before she wraps her arm around me.

It feels so safe and warm in her arms.

,,So what are we watching?" I ask, and Lexa seems surprised.

,,Are you sure that you're up to it? She murmurs and I nod.

,,There is this show... uhh oh pretty little liars."

,,I thought that I'm the only one that haven't seen it yet." She says and turns on the TV.

I fall asleep while watching a movie and being in Lexa's arms.

When I wake up, I see Raven and Octavia standing next to Lexa's bed.

I'm still in Lexa's arms, and Lexa is still sleeping.

,,Are you gay?" Is all that Octavia says.

A longer chapter! Thank you for reading! Stay safe.