Never to Forever

you are not my

I'm the next heiress of my family's business.

And the next heiress of the crown. 

BACK TO PRESENT

"Mom, I'm home." I slip off my heels and sigh.

"The date. Tell me. Now." she demanded without looking at me. 

I stayed silent and walked into the living room. Loud, large steps.

"You have the nerve to not talk, huh?" Getting up and wobbling slightly, she grabs my hair and drags me down, onto the floor.

I can't do anything.

So I just let the stinging smell of alcohol fill my nose and plop down to the floor, writhing in pain.

Reminds me of...

Reminds me of my ex.

Winona.

Forget him.

No, don't do that actually.

I will remember and recover, not forgive and forget.

But a small part of me, the weakest and most damaged part of my heart longs for him.

And when I finally put my heart to rest after crying and missing him, after lying it limp over our gravestone in the cemetery of loved ones. I broke down once more when I saw it stop beating for him.

For us.

But now, just that little part of my heart...

Why is it beating again?

Why, after these years, why do I want to be back with him, with the one who broke my heart into a million pieces, with the one who tried to suffocate me with his bullshit?

I hate missing someone knowing that they won't come back.