Our Moment

Part 28

'Haley calm down. If you're not calming down I cannot tell.' He panicked a little bit.

'I'm asking you one last time Niall, where is Derek?!'

'Listen. He slashed- he yes, ahm he slashed him on his heart, ehm then I went over to him but he just didn't move anymore. I shook his head and saw him loosing too much blood. I took him up, but Harry the neuropath came over to us and slashed my belly. I fell down with Derek, tried to calm down and pulled the knife out if my belly and just stood up and ran to the car. You're father and asshole Sam came too.
I tried to drove you two fast to the hospital, and here we are. I know, not the right moment, but I don't want you to have contact with Sam anymore. He wanted to took you in, wtf?! I gave him Derek and yes, ehm Haley I know you're shocked but please calm down. Haley everything is going to be okay.'

My eyes were full with tears. Because of me, one victim more. Oh my god. I'm destroying everything around me. Harry was right. Harry's words were right. I did so much wrong. He slashed my brother. Because of me.. Oh my fucking god, please not. My life, what if he.. Haley, don't think about things like these. Just answer Niall. I looked emotionless at him. A cold tear flew down.

'You are saying everything is going to be okay?! You, yeah you, you are saying everything is going to be okay?! How?! Niall explain me how?!' I whispered with panic and fear.

I didn't know why I whispered, I think I was just in shock, I couldn't control myself. I saw Niall slowly turning pale, and having tears in his eyes. They were more red than before. He was afraid. He wasn't afraid of loosing him, he was afraid of loosing me. That I leave him alone, or that I leave myself. That I fall hard, very hard on the ground, and can't find myself again. The thing is, I don't wanted to spread him panic, but please, he cannot tell me that everything is going to be okay. Nothing is going to be okay, and I know that now.

I shook on his shoulders with my hands and stood in front of him. He winced so heavy. We both had the same sum of tears in our eyes. It was not because of his pain, it was because of me. I knew that.

'Look, I'm hurting everyone, even the ones I love or loved the most. Just every possible thing. Even if I don't want it. I shouldn't exist.'

I grabbed my leather jacket and wanted to go, but Niall blocked the door and stood in front of it. I had a deja-vu. When Niall woke up and I couldn't realize it.

'Haley. Don't go. Haley please. Look at me.' He touched his body again.

The thought of this situation, didn't happen a long time ago, is making me sad. I cried. I cried like a little girl. I can't handle it anymore. I can't pretend like everything is going to be okay. I just can't do that anymore.

'Haley, remember, remember that day.'

'Which?'

'Where we decided to make a promise.'

'Yeah I remember.'

'I thought we're not loosing hope? I thought, we're going through everything together. Haley.' He touched his soft skin again. 'This, this body is not leaving you alone. I gave a promise and I'm not breaking it. I didn't give up in coma, so why should
I calculated now break it. Why?'

'He is in coma right?'

'Yes.' He looked away, and then at the ground.

I threw my leather jacket away and ran over to him. I hugged him and cried on his chest. He put his head on mine, and hugged me so tight too. I think it hurt, because of his belly, cause I felt how his chest trembled but not winced. He closed his eyes because of pain.

'It hurts right?'

'I really don't give a fuck, I just want to hug you, no matter how much it's hurting.'

I wanted to let him go, but he just took me from my bum up and after a few times moaning, his chest was between my legs and I was on his arms. He looked into my eyes like a winner and gave me a fast but seductive "I want more" kiss. We looked deep into our eyes.

'Have I ever told you how beautiful you are?' He looked dreamy at me.

'I mean, sure a lot of times, but it's not the truth.'

His facial expression changed quickly into a insulted one. He placed me on the ground again, touched his belly and looked dispiriting on it. He went to MY BED, laid down and turned his back to me. I was still in shock and looked with an open mouth at him. I went over to him and stood in front of MY BED.

'Why are you-'

'My belly hurts. Wanna sleep now. Go please.'

He was "insulted", but I knew, he just wanted my attention. Hmm, and I wanted to annoy him. Perfect.

'It's my bed, ehe eheem. Go to your room if your belly hurts soooooo much.'

He snored to make me feel like "I don't hear you" but he said his pain is not mattering so why not? I jumped at him and shook on the bed.

'I know that you're not sleeping!!' I yelled and laughed at the same time.

I saw a little smile turning brighter and brighter on his face. Then he opened his so beautiful, ocean blue eyes.

'Have I ever told you how beautiful your eyes are?' I looked dreamy into them.

'No, you haven't, but it's not mattering, cause I'm angry at you.' He turned his back to me again. I was still sitting on him.

I went with my head over to his left ear.

'Then I'm telling it now. I love them.'

'And I love you.. Haley please. Please believe in yourself. You're beautiful the way you are, you know that.'

'I love you too. Please be not angry at me because of that. I just.. I just miss my old, soft face. But it's not coming back.'

'Your face is so soft, sorry but don't talk shit. I mean, it's like a baby bum, you know that. I think I should sing my part on Little Things just for you.'

Little Things? What's that?

'What is that..?'

'It's a song, that I wrote, with the boys, for my dream girl, and I remember, saying I'll sing that when I'll find the right girl, and look I found her.'

"Yoυ'll ηεvεr lovε yoυrsεlf hαlf αs mυch αs I lovε yoυ
Yoυ'll ηεvεr trεαt yoυrsεlf right dαrliηg bυt I wαηt yoυ to
If I lεt yoυ kηow I'm hεrε for yoυ
Mαybε yoυ'll lovε yoυrsεlf likε I lovε yoυ
Oh"

Oh my god. That was so beautiful.

'Niall it was just.. Incredible. Your voice is so beautiful. I'm proud of you.' A tear flew down my face.

'And I'm proud, to have a girlfriend like you.' He pulled my head closer to his.

'I love you' we both said at the same time. We both giggled, and as we kissed us gentle, I couldn't remain stable anymore, and ruined our kiss by falling on the ground. I laughed so loud. My whole body hurt. But that doesn't mean it's not funny. We both laughed so loud.

'HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA'

'Wait I'll help you.' He pulled me up and now I was laying on him.

We kissed us again, but then someone came in. Without knocking. What the fucking fuck, who was this, ruining our kiss, for the second time?!