Let's dream together, IwaOi - current hiatus sorry

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Oikawa pov

It was exhausting. By now, I didn't even know why I wanted to be a lifeguard. I wasn't even a real one, I was still a teenager. But I had this badge and could save lives so this was something good, I assume. 

I first only did it because I couldn't decide on a hobby and my parents pressured me to have one but now it was pretty fun. It was exhausting, yes but I just loved the water. I could spend hours gliding through it and diving. I absolutely loved having my head underwater. The silence and only feeling the water around you was the best thing ever. Especially, when it was summer and really hot. 

I just wished I had someone to share that experience with. My parents weren't home often. They both had a job in Potsdam although my dad got a better offer in Berlin. That would probably be good if we didn't live in Magdeburg. Their job was one and a half hours away from our apartment which means that they spend a lot of time commuting. And because both their jobs were pretty long, I was always alone at home. 

I surely had friends but we barely did things I enjoy together. They just hated the water. I couldn't understand but I didn't really mind. It would just be good having someone you could do those things with. 

I probably could ask the people from my club but they never made an effort to do something with me and I didn't want to make one as well. Besides that, I think they hate me. They always look like they were going to kill me. I didn't know why but maybe because some girls who were watching from I don't know were looked at me instead of them. And because I wasn't paying any attention to them other than smiling from time to time they think I'm arrogant. But why should I pay attention to those girls when I was gay? I really wanted to tell my teammates but I didn't want to make them feel uncomfortable and leave like some of my other friends did after I told them. My parents knew and they didn't care. My mother actually liked it because I couldn't get anyone pregnant. 

All those thoughts revolved in my head before I headed to bed. I put in one of my AirPods, setting a timer for 15 minutes and 36 seconds and shuffling my favourite playlist. I would be asleep before the timer ended but until then I could listen to music and get my mind off of other things.