ɴᴏᴛ ʜᴏᴡ ɪᴛ sᴜᴘᴘᴏsᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ɢᴏ//ᴠɪɴɴɪᴇ ʜᴀᴄᴋᴇʀ ғᴀɴ ғɪᴄᴛɪᴏɴ

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(play the song while reading)

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𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗟𝗢𝗨𝗗 𝗠𝗨𝗦𝗜𝗖 𝗙𝗥𝗢𝗠 𝗗𝗢𝗪𝗡𝗦𝗧𝗔𝗜𝗥𝗦 𝗕𝗨𝗥𝗦𝗧𝗦 𝗧𝗛𝗢𝗨𝗚𝗛 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗦𝗣𝗘𝗔𝗞𝗘𝗥𝗦 𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗖𝗔𝗡 𝗛𝗘𝗔𝗥 𝗜𝗧 𝗢𝗩𝗘𝗥 𝗠𝗬 𝗦𝗢𝗕𝗦

sniffs and sobs coming from me sitting on the bathroom ground with my hands on my knees with my head in my knees-

BANG BANG

"IS SOMEONE IN HERE OR-" the boy knocks on the bathroom door yelling. so the girl on the ground yells back

"YES..- FUCK LEAVE ME ALONE.."
the girl yells back choking on her sobs you could here the pain in her voice
when she talks..

"sorry.. i uh didn't know you were crying.." the boy said back to me I heard him waking away

the girl slowly gets up looking in the mirror. her eyeliner is smudged and her mascara is running down her face.
she sees how she looks in the mirror.

she picks up a tissue from the bathroom counter and wipes all the ruined makeup off.
she unlocks the door and walks out pasting everyone that looking at her
to go downstairs to the living room.

fuck to far..let me catch you up a bit
so odessa aka the bathroom girl she's friends with nessa & justin her two only friends- she hides her pain from her friends when they know.. what she does.

she cutts, and does drugs..her friends are worried for her because they caught her once trying to kill herself..
but they try their best to help her..
so bring her places- like this party Odessa doesn't really like party but she like the drugs there...
great now let's go back to the part we were at..

as odessa walk towards the living room she's sees Justin sitting in a circle with other guys and girls

"DES COME JOIN US" Justin say from a distance Scooting over towords some random guy patting the flooring
signaling me to sit
I walk over to him sitting seeing that there's a bottle on the ground

fuck... I hate this game. i wish I was in the bathroom crying still

"who's going first" a boy said

maybe if I go first...it'll be faster..

"me.." I say picking up the bottle spinning it

it's spins....

and spins.....

and stopped....

on some guy. he had brown medium straight hair,with brown eyes.

he leans in towards me and kisses me I feel his hand around my neck holding it. I let go sitting back down
I wasn't uncomfortable I just didn't like this game. kissing stanger in a circle really?

"I'll go next" the boy I just kissed said
he spined the bottle and it landed in justin.. Justin was gay so he wouldn't mind it

"damn max good luck" some girl said

I guess his names as max. so Justin leans towards him placing his lips on his it lasted a couple of seconds

"has anyone told you your a great kisser" max says smirking at him I didn't think he would be into it

"no but thanks." Justin said looking at him in the eye blushing

Justin isn't really a blushing type he he like a guy and just wanna fuck him
even though Justin is a virgin.

we played a couple more rounds of spin the bottle until nessa showed up with a couple more people they seem fun one guy had liquor boxes in his hand

He shouted "LETS GET THIS PARTY STARTED!!"

everyone goes crazy but me I hate crowds and people.I got up and went back to the bathroom. luckily I had extra coke & weed so i toke the coke so I did that to kill someone time

until I realize there was a window in the bathroom looks like it lead to the roof I opened it and saw the roof I went to sit down and took out the weed and smoked it

I got high after thinking about things
about flying...

when I was younger I use to think I had powers. pretending to fly... but Im on the rooftop. Going to fly again...

I got up..wobbly, and high I walk forward looking down it's high as fuck
I was scared but ready.I didn't have anything to live for. I finished high school, college was after summer for everyone. Justin & nessa would miss me but honestly there tried of me. helping me get better knowing I can't...

I close my eyes, and I heard noises but I ignored them i step forward-

a/n:
THIS IS MY FIRST
STORY SO BE NICE