ɴᴏᴛ ʜᴏᴡ ɪᴛ sᴜᴘᴘᴏsᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ɢᴏ//ᴠɪɴɴɪᴇ ʜᴀᴄᴋᴇʀ ғᴀɴ ғɪᴄᴛɪᴏɴ

two

I stepped forward and someone caught me- I felt big muscular hands around me pulling me back..
when they pulled me back we fell on the top of the roof

I didn't know what to do but cry.
I didn't really want to cry in a stranger arms, but this time I want too.

"hey, uh I don't really know you. But I'm sorry..but it'll be okay, it'll get better.." the stanger mumbled in my ear with a deep calming voice

"it-it never a gets be-better" I say choking on my sobs, hearing the pain in my voice

"it can, i promise." he says holding on to me tight, it just makes me cry more
"look- uh you can stay here tonight if u don't have anywhere to go.." the boy suggested but i nodded no and gave him a soft 'it's okay' while wiping away my tears leaning off him

as i leaned off him i saw who it was.
vinnie hacker. i know him from freshman year, i used to be friends with his brother reggie hacker. i had a crush on vinnie until he left to switch schools. he's one of the reason i started cutting was him leaving, he was comforting and loving. he left me it's no one but justin came along a week later and nessa came with him.

"vinnie..." i said shocked
"des" he said with the same expression

flashback 4 years ago

" odessa.. can we talk please?"

" sure vinnie, what about?"

"des..i'm moving schools.. me and reggie"

"which one, like the one in berry deck??"(bye cuz wtf is a berry deck😭)

"no des the one in florida."

"florida?? no way. you're joking right?"
"ha ha really funny, v"

"des this isn't a joke i'm leaving tomorrow.."

"what? why? vinnie."

"my mom wants to try something different."

"seriously?"

"yes des..."

"whatever.i can't. i'm leaving"

"odessa come on this isn't my fault- look just sit down please"

"no vinnie. i-"

like you

"vinnie i- i can't bye."

next day

"vinnie look i'm sorry i didn't mean to run off like that the other day.."
"i ran off because i- i like you"

"great now time to say it to him instead of the mirror-"

i think we know what happened after that she was late he was gone. she blamed herself on why he left, and cutting was the only answer.

"vinnie-"

"des, i miss you some much-" the girl interrupts the boy

"when did you move back." she said with a more serious tone a mixture of seriousness, and anger

"uh, a couple of weeks ago, why?" the clueless boy asks looking at her while she got up

"vinnie. 'a couple of weeks' why didn't u visit me?" she asked standing up

"i didn't know if you moved or anything-" the girl interrupts again this time she watched him get up

"vinnie. what the fuck. you couldn't bother to check? i've missed you for, four YEARS. AND YOU COULDNT BOTHER TO CHECK ON ME. ON HOW IM DOING. WHAT THE FUCK VINNIE." she grew angrier and angrier, stepping back bit by bit while yelling at the boy.

"des- look you have every right to be mad but please come over here, please" the worried boy begged but the girl denied.

"why? vinnie." she steps back again

"look i'll tell you- if u come over here."
the boy said watching her step back

"no-" she stepped back and there was no roof left for her to step. so she fell off the two story house on too hard concrete. blood everywhere gushing from all the places. she was dead. gone right there on the spot. gone forever.