Fallen Love

Chapter 2

River

Alioth is so frustrating, so paranoid.

I hate how he thinks he can control me, he is so afraid of losing me that I'm scared over time he'll lose himself. I want him to trust where we live and know that I am able to take care of myself. I'm not helpless by any means but it would be a lot easier if Alioth told me the truth of why he is constantly scared for my safety.

From the moment we first met the large off-world barely left my side. The only moment I get alone is when I manage to escape but it's never too long before he finds me and gets angry. When he is mad, he is terrifying. He never shouts at me but just the way he looks is enough to make me shrink into myself.

I love being around him more than anything but once in a while, a girl needs alone time but he doesn't get it. He does everything he can to keep me happy and I'm grateful for that, but happiness is all but an obligation to me. I don't deserve it, I simply see it as a debt I need to pay because I owe it to my friend.

My heart clenched whenever I thought of that moment, the moment I ended her life. Watching the light in her eyes die was traumatizing, I see her face every night when I go to sleep, reminding me of my sin. I'm a monster in disguise and I know for certain that if someone as noble and honorable as Alioth found out, he would hate me.

I walked a few feet away from him on our way to Titania's house, my arms crossed in annoyance. He gave me the space I need but I saw that it was a struggle for him. He kept moving closer, trying to touch me in some way whether it was the brush of his arm, or our fingers touching lightly but I was having none of it. He needed to understand the way he makes me feel sometimes, I don't appreciate being told what to do.

"River, please." He begged from beside me, wanting any kind of attention he could get from me but I refused to give in.

When we arrived at the house, I ran inside plastering a smile on my face for everyone to see so they know I'm happy, so they don't question the pain I hide.

"Hi River." Titania smiled, nursing Nysa casually on the couch while Halo slept.

I approached my godson slowly, brushing my fingers over his chubby face in awe. He is the cutest and grows stronger every day. I got him to laugh a few times but no one is ever around to hear it which annoys me.

"Is Scarlett around?" I asked her wishing to see the straight-faced beauty so I can talk with her while Alioth worked. It will be hours before Titania's session is over and I hate waiting with no one to conversate with.

"She's on patrol today, I'm sorry."

I shrugged lightly, smiling at her, "That's alright. I guess Halo's company will have to do."

Titania laughed just as Alioth stomped inside. I didn't look up at him, my attention remained focused on the baby. If I look at him, my anger will falter and I will melt by the sight of his loving eyes. I won't do that to myself, I need him to know I can be by myself without him nearby.

I picked the sleeping child up, ignoring Alioth's presence, my heart hurting at the way I am treating him. I know by the end of the day that won't be the case but for now, I'm upset and I'm allowed to be.

I left the two alone while I escaped into the nursery with Halo sighing while I rocked him. After a few hours, the baby woke up and I spent that time taking care of him. I changed him, played with him, changed him again just to see the outfits he has and how adorable he looks in them but after a while, I grew bored and he grew hungry.

With a sigh I left the nursery, entering the living room where Alioth and Titania were discussing the confinement constellation, it's all they really talked about. Alioth usually has her meditate for a little before talking to her quietly switching between English and their native language that I find absolutely beautiful.