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Chapter 18

Hailee's POV
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The moment he saw me. The moment I saw him. I just wanted to run to him, hug him, kiss him, talk to him, laugh with him. All the things we did before.
"Ace..." I whispered
Douglas just watched me and stared at me with a confused face "uh?" He said and he turned around he saw Asa, Asa saw him. I have no idea of what Douglas will think or what Asa will think. But I hope he doesn't thinks something that's not true.
Douglas faced me again "Hailee..."
"Yes?" I say trying to forget the thoughts.
"Are you excited?" He says smiling
"Excited? For what?" I ask confused
"Uhh... That you got the role of Juliet."
I sigh "I guess... Uhm... Douglas, Taylor I need some time alone-"
Douglas didn't let me finish the sentence when he pulled me closer to him "why?" He said worried
"Nothing, I just need some time alone." I finally said, walking away from them.
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I finally get some free time for me, I started thinking about everything. Why? Did this happened to me? Why Asa? Why Douglas? Why Taylor? Why this school? Why me? Why my heart? I am in so much pain right now... This gives me a big headache. I put my hands in my forehead trying to concentrate. Why this hurts so much? Asa... Why you? Specially you? You make me crazy... And I want you with me. But ugh... I'm stupid why am I even talking to myself? I feel my eyes with tears, that are about to fall. I HATE LOVE. I thought, without knowing that someone came to sit with me. Paris.
"Hey Hailee? Are you alright?" Paris said worried, thank God that she's alone
"Yes." I lied.
"Are you sure? You don't seem okay." My eyes let the tears fall
"No. Paris. No. I'm not okay. I'm confused." I said letting my tears come one by one through my cheeks.
She grabbed one of my hands "why Hailee?"
I don't know if I can tell her she's Aramis girlfriend, and Aramis is Asa's best friend. She might tell to Aramis and Aramis might tell Asa.
I took a deep breathe "If I tell you, please promise me that you won't tell anyone. Neither Aramis nor Asa."
She gave me a confident smile, with that smile I knew I could trust her.
"Paris. I'm heartbroken." I whispered
Paris sighed "but why?"
"I'm in love."
"With who? What did he did to break your heart?"
"He did nothing. But what I told him to do."
"But who's him?"
"Asa." I said and I couldn't let my tears go slow anymore, they were falling a bit faster.
Surprised with what I said she said "Asa?! What!?"
"Yeah. I know. Stupid thing."
"No! No! Girl are you crazy?!"
I thought about what I said, but I had no reason why I would even be crazy? "Uhm no?" I said confused
She giggles "Hailee! Asa loves you! Can't you notice that!? He's crazy for you!"
What!? Crazy for me!? He loves me?! I'm so confused at the moments.
"He loves me?"
She smiles "of course he does! The way he looks at you! The way he treats you! The way-" she stopped and smiled gently looking directly at my eyes "-he speaks about you... You're like his only jewel, his only star, his light. Believe me he says wonderful things about you." I couldn't hide my smile anymore
"... I mean... Wow... I'm speechless..."
"Yes Hailee I don't know why are you so sad about that?"
Then of course my smile faded...
"Because I did something so stupid."
"I don't think you did"
"Believe me I did"
"What then?"
"I told him to stop being my friend. And we'll that explains everything, we're falling apart. I'm afraid to fall in love. Because I feared facing this. What I'm feeling right now."
"Hailee look at me" I looked at her and smiled "Love is a beautiful fear." Indeed it is.
I smiled but didn't replied.
The bell rang to go to classes, we stood up and I felt good now. I smiled and let a big sigh of relief, walking next to Paris.
"Thankyou..." I whispered
"Not a problem" she smiled "You know that when you feel bad or you need to express yourself don't doubt in telling me, I'll be there to help."
I smiled "I will... But hey! Remember not telling anyone!"
She chuckled "Don't worry Hailee. I won't tell anyone." She smiled and gave me a hug "trust me." She whispered in my ear. I smiled.
"Hey just something I think that you should do, talk to Asa. I don't think he's mad at you. I think he will be happy to talk to you again."
I nodded and smiled "I'll try, thanks really" she smiled and hugged me one last time leaving me in my class.
When I entered the class was almost full there where two chairs left one between Douglas and Taylor, and the other one between Douglas and Asa. I was about to sit in the one between Asa and Douglas when suddenly...

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{A/N you guyss!!! Asdfghjkl sorry for not posting a chapter like since forever! Thanks for all the reads btw, it really does mean a lot. And omg I was reading my first chapters and wow, how many spelling mistakes I did had. But anyways! Enjoy this chapter and I'll try to post chapter 19 asap! Loveyou guys all so much! xx}