The fact that I hadn't shifted on night five was a blow to my confidence however interesting events occurred that night. I discovered a new audio and when I listened to it and visualised there was a pain, a pain in my stomach and while it hurt I was also incredibly happy, the pain was coming from my belly button and it was almost like something was either trying to get in or out. It wasn't shattering or unbearable but I almost wish it was. I had heard that pain was such a good sign and got excited but my concentration was broken and my eyes opened. The pain never came back and it was disappointing. Not only that but despite my joy at the pain I became overwhelmed with negative thoughts telling me it won't happen, that this is all just a trick, that I'm trapped here forever and it's a mother reason my eyes opened.
I need to work harder on my resolve, to fight the negative thoughts while maintaining my visuals. It's a tricky thing to do but hopefully I can do it soon
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My shifting journal
No FicciónThis is where I will keep a log of my shifting experiences, it will be updated almost daily but the updates will mostly just be small
