I Want To Matter

Prologue

Neglected and ignored. That's how Donghyuck would describe how he felt. That's how he would describe the treatment he was getting from the other 127 members. Now, it wasn't like they wouldn't talk to him or ignore his existence in general. No, they would just ignore his affection or push him away just to cling on to someone else. Donghyuck knows they don't mean to make him feel this way, he knows they love him, but he just can't help getting upset when they act this way. Is it so hard to just give him even an ounce of affection? He knows he can be a little annoying and too much sometimes but can't they just accept a hug every once in a while?
Donghyuck just wants the affection that he sees everyone else getting. Is it too much to ask? How is he supposed to feel when he gets pushed away from a member who claims they don't want any hugs, just for them to pull in someone else in? Sure, he laughs it off and fake cries, but it causes a sting to come in his eyes and a pain to form in his chest. He just wants to be treated like he matters. To FEEL like he matters