I Want To Matter

Chapter 4

   "Yah Donghyuck, Jaehyun, wake up!" A pounding on his door followed after that, the sounds of footsteps retreating from the door was heard after a couple of seconds. A groan came from the other side of the room as Jaehyun wrestled with his bedsheets to get up. Donghyuck stared at the ceiling above him. He had been awake for who knows how long. He just couldn't find it in him to sleep. He was nervous about today. Today was day one of Operation Affection Less. Donghyuck, with a huff a rose from his bed to start the day. He shuffled his way into the kitchen where everyone else sat eating breakfast.
   "Ok everyone, we have practice today and Doyoung, Taeil, and Haechannie, you three will go record for your parts right after. Does everyone understand?" A chorus of "Yes Taeyong Hyung" was spoken around the table. He smiled and went back to eating. Donghyuck looked around the table and was already feeling like giving up. The urge to just latch onto Johnny who is right next to him was strong. God I haven't even started and I'm already failing. Donghyuck mentally rolled his eyes at himself for being so weak. Piling into the van was also difficult. Usually he would attempt to rest his head on the shoulder of whoever was next to him. Granted he would always be pushed off but he still tried. To ensure that he wouldn't give into temptation, Donghyuck got in first and sat by the window. The rest of the members climbed in as well with Yuta sitting beside him. Donghyuck had to face the window and blink away the forming tears as he heard Yuta curse under his breath about having to be next to the annoying maknae.
   I'm sorry Yuta Hyung....
   Arriving to the practice room, Donghyuck was the last to get out. Whispering words of encouragement to himself, he made his way out of the van. Practice didn't give him much time to think about his little operation. He was tired from all the dancing and practicing the same four songs over and over again. At around four in the afternoon, Donghyuck, Doyoung, and Taeil were pulled away to record their parts. Doyoung went first while Donghyuck and Taeil sat on the couch and waited. Donghyuck went on his phone to distract himself. He wouldn't cuddle into Taeil. He just wouldn't. This was so much harder than expected. Every part of him was desperately aching to cling onto someone. To be wrapped up in a hug where he felt safe and secure. Fighting with his own mind, he zoned out and missed the way Taeil looked at him with concern.