RJ: what goes around comes around

Chapter 18-Rickys thoughts

Rickys POV:

As you definitely know by now, this is my first audition. I'm really not sure how the process goes, besides what I did reaserch on.

I heard that if you study your music and prepare, you shouldn't be too nervous. Though I was so nervous. More nervous then ever before.
My hand was shaking.

Mrs Jenn just called me up, as everyone sat scattered in this large theatre.

"Hi, I'm Ricky Bowen, and Uh— today imma sing an original. I, also want to.....audition for Troy?

I was shaking and everyone was laughing . I wanted to run away. Why was I even here??
Oh... to get back nini.

As I grab my guitar, I see nini sitting next to EJ, but they're not making any physical contact. Something was up. Nini is staring at me with wide eyes and great concern.

Maybe I should've let her live her life ,with EJ.

Anyways, forget about it, maybe I will sing well.

"Hello... my name is Ricky Bowen ... and this is my original called... I think I kinda ya know"

Mrs Jenn gives me a subtle smile. Maybe I belong here? Will enjoy doing a musical?

I take a deep breath, stare out into the seats and start strumming.

"So much has happened, think of what we've done, in the time that the earth has traveled round the sun."       

Nini looks like she's about to cry, EJ is looking at me like he used too.

Like there's still something there.

I thought I was doing pretty well on the song until the end when i see EJ tear up as well.
I miss him.

I stop for some reason. I don't know why. I think I lost purpose.

I still love nini but I didn't care about getting her back. I want her to be happy, and I didn't want too ruin this show for her.  For about 30 seconds I just stare at EJ, and he stares at me which I wasn't expecting.

This isn't how auditions go is it??

I completely forgot that I was still completely frozen on stage with no words coming out of my mouth, my worst nightmare.

So, I run off.

"I can't do this I'm sorry."

I can't ruin nini and EJs happiness. I'm re falling for EJ and I can't let that happen again. I loved both of them and that would be a terrible thing for me too do to interfere with there happiness. I can't be there.

I run too quickly to catch what people thought of me, but I don't frankly care, I was just there to ruin everything.

I run too my locker to just sit and rethink everything, maybe shed a tear or 2.

I hear footsteps behind me.