mending your heart [dreamnotfound]

chapter eleven

tw: intrusive thoughts, self harm mentions, death threats, body shaming. 

[a/n: so a few people got a little bit pressed with the fact i called musical films gay... trust me i am very aware they are not gay! it was a joke made for the purpose of the book! i personally identify as heterosexual and love musical theatre movies/dramas etc. such as mamma mia, grease, dirty dancing, west side story and many more! it was for the purpose of the book and i am sorry if this offended anyone. either way i love all of you no matter your pronoun/identity/sexuality!]

as sapnap had previously asked, george went to the now spare room and found 2 large blankets, this being enough to cover all 3 of them at least. 

while george got them out of the drawer in the room, clay laid out all of the snacks on the coffee table as sapnap sat comfortable watching. 

as clay looked up he spoke. 

"you're such a shit! you know i hate the shining you bitch." he said as sapnap giggled then speaking. 

"i know, but i also know that george is gonna need a cuddle during it... think of it this way, i'm helping you right now, he'll cuddle up to you and in a couple of months when he's less fragile... he's yours." sapnap said as clay went red and spoke. 

"you know you need to stop making jokes like that! he doesn't know i love him, and if he knows, it could send him downwards even more, he needs time..." he said as sapnap nodded. 

soon enough george returned and turned off the light, this leaving dim lights radiating the only light as well as the tv. 

they all sat down and got comfortable, george and clay a little closer than sapnap and george. 

as the movie went on, george bundled underneath the blanket which him and clay was sharing, he hated horror movies with a passion, and also the attachment they had was awful. 

cameron had made george watch a horror movie in the cinema, it sent george to mental exhaustion for a few days after, for the reasons. 

1. george couldn't sleep the same night because some things in that film did not sit right in his brain. 

and 2. george had massive anxiety when it came to the cinema, he never wanted to eat or even move in the cinema in case he made a noise and drew attraction to himself, but would go to ensure cameron got his date nights like he wanted. 

after that date george never watched another horror movie until today. 

as george watched the tv and saw a light flash he was startled by the tiniest things, and wanted it to be over with already... maybe clay was right in saying he was thinking of george. 

however, that was a cover up, because clay was sat next to george holding the remainder of the grey blanket to ensure george didn't hog the whole thing and had his eyes squinted making it easier to close them when he was scared. 

however, as clay opened his eyes after a scarier part, he saw george looking saddened like a sad puppy, clearly scared of the film, clay didn't want to possibly 'make a move' like this, but he wanted comfort for george. 

clay did no more and tapped george's shoulder gently.

as george felt the tap, he turned startled and slightly confused and startled from the suddenness, why he felt the urge to kick drop whatever had tapped him he didn't know.

horror movie instincts maybe, however he was glad he looked first, he was met with the fiery golden eyes, even know he knew they were green... partially to him they looked better golden.