mending your heart [dreamnotfound]

chapter nineteen

tw: mentions of: self harm, alcoholism, physical/verbal abuse.

LONG CHAPTER INCOMING (I HOPE IT MAKES UP FOR IT BEING A MONTH LOL - ALSO HAPPY PRIDE!!! <3)

btw ; bold speech = speech coming from the device mentioned at the time of the stream

clay turned his phone to the side, sapnap's stream now turning horizontal and he set the rotation onto lock so they could watch it without any interruptions.

george placed his head on clay's shoulder, staring down at the fire screen which had been there for 4 minutes at this point.

as clay felt george's head on his shoulder he smiled and wrapped an arm around him, his eyes not moving from the screen.

clay promised the stream would be open.

and he kept that promise.

meanwhile...

before sapnap changed the screens over to his facecam, he kept muted and watched out in his twitch verified viewers, and when he saw dreamwastaken amongst the other names he smiled and breathed out a breath which he didn't even know he was holding.

before he began, karl spoke clearly wanting to get his point heard by sapnap.

"is you're last point about us sapnap... it's been nearly 6 months since we both agreed it was time to try us out, they deserve to know. they love us." karl said as sapnap turned and spoke.

"maybe karl... i can't promise you that i will, it really just depends how chat responds to me addressing everything which happened... i don't want our relationship getting the bad end of the stick." sapnap said as karl smiled and gave him a quick peck.

he then climbed back on to george and clay's bed to be out of view from the face cam.

sapnap turned and put george's headset on and looked to the mic, then to the 2nd screen which showed the stream labs, and the 1st screen with his facecam video set up.

he could not hold off any longer.

he was doing this.

sapnap clicked the change screens button, and soon enough he smiled and spoke...

as clay and george waited patiently for the screen to change over, when it actually once did... it freaked them out somewhat but not as bad as what other things did in the past.

they watched carefully as sapnap spoke clearly and well put together.

'hey chat... so yes, i'm clearly not at my house... and i'm very much clearly here to address everything that happened the beginning of last month, before we go on i do have some ground rules from the chat which i would like you to respect for me...'

'1. please do not ask questions in chat about the things that happened with george, he will address the situation when he is prepared...

2. i am friends with george still because you only know one side of the story... meaning when you all saw that, you may have all jumped to conclusions very quickly and sent them death threats to george, forgetting he is human too.

3. yes, i am at george's house. yes i am streaming from his room and yes dream is here with us... george will explain reasoning and it all, i am here to address what happened with me, sapnap, nick... no one else... with that in mind, let's go on.'

clay couldn't help but smile at how proud he was for how sapnap was dealing with it, and george was extremely grateful to hear sapnap explain the death threats were wrong no matter the situation.

clay looked to george who gently smiled down watching as sapnap continued speaking and going over the things which cameron had let out about him.

the stream was short, but george and clay watched the whole thing.

from start to finish.

from worry to relief.

sapnap addressed the leaking of his own information, and that it was not news to the world he had sisters, but he kindly asked his fans to not go back into looking about his family, as his family was the only part of his life which was private and he wanted to keep it that way.

as the situation began to ease on sapnap's part, viewers began to role in... more and more.

sapnap started at 100k and was now about to end the stream with nearly 500k viewers.

as sapnap began to close the stream, he then looked over to see karl cross legged watching proudly, causing sapnap to know this was what he had to do...

even if he was a private person some light needed to be shone in their community again and this would do just that.

"so before i end chat, there is one more thing which i would like to tell you... and i have a friend to help me... karl would you?" sapnap said turning, karl looked over and smiled widely.

he then quickly jumped off of the bed and appeared behind the chair.

"so, karl is here too... and karl is here because..." sapnap said.

he then looked behind him to karl who looked down at sapnap, and smiled then finishing sapnap's sentence for him like people do in stories.

"we're together! like together together... karlnap together if you must!" karl said as sapnap giggled at their ship name and brought him round the chair to sit on his lap.

karl kindly accepted, and sat there, sapnap's head resting on his shoulder and his arms wrapped around karls body.

they smiled watching the chat filled with love, and thank yous for giving them the answers they needed for clarification of the twitter drama...

after a few questions which chat had been asking continuously sapnap ended and wished them all to be safe and to enjoy life.

sapnap ended the stream, and the twitch stream cut off for clay and george...

as the stream ended, clay locked his phone and then smirked before george could even have a second to think or a second to speak.

clay did no more and grabbed him at the waist and flipped them both over in the grass.

clay was laid on his back as a giggling george was in a crawling position over clay.

clay smiled as he watched his now boyfriend over him giggling like someone who had, had never had anything affect him and someone hurt him in the weeks prior, he was like a different person for the better.

as george finally calmed down he looked down to see happy eyes and a happy smile looking at him, and all george could do was question.

"what?" he asked as clay let out a slight laugh and then a sigh then speaking.

"might sound stupid... but i'm glad you're happy again, i thought at one point i'd completely lost you... we all thought we may have lost you." he said as george looked down with aweing eyes.

"i'm glad too... but it's all thanks to you, you gave me that reason to be better for myself and i couldn't be any happier than i am right now with you..." george said as clay smiled again and brought george in.

george's head laid on clay's chest and clay's hands rested on george's back.

the two laid in silence, the world going by then but they felt as if the world went by slowly in comparison to what it actually was.

george turned his head to face near the back door, as somehow he could hear sapnap and karl running down the stairs.

sure enough sapnap burst through the backdoor with karl on his back in a piggy back and as clay looked he laughed.

george smiled and cuddled up closer to clay, nuzzling his head into clay's chest as he listened to sapnap go on like he would all of the time, but this time his excuse was valid.

"it feels so good! i'm back! and i'm back with a boyfriend and showing him off every stream!" sapnap shouted as karl laughed holding onto sapnap's shoulders.

clay raised a hand from george's back and twisted parts of his hair and then spoke.

"i'm so happy for you sap, i was so shocked when you came out with it on there, but that's amazing... also did you disconnect the facecam for me?" he asked as sapnap paused and let karl down finally and then spoke.

"oh shit, no... i'll go do it now if you want me too?" he asked as clay looked back and nodded.

sapnap smiled and then him and karl left again to go prepare things for clay.

george then spoke, and when he did clay was convinced he'd got some sort of mind reading power.

"if you want to tell them about us... you can, and i will too." he said with no movement or worry in his voice... and that was when he knew.

george wasn't afraid anymore, he wasn't afraid to admit the love he had for clay, because he knew clay wasn't anything like cameron...

he could finally fall in love, and not be scared too...

clay smiled and then pressed a kiss on george's head speaking afterwards.

"i am so in love with you, you will never know." he said as george giggled and pulled one of clay's hands from his back and intertwined it with his own.

"oh i know... and i will know, cause you're mine... forever." he said as clay laughed a little and spoke.

"forever? seems like a very long time to deal with you..." he said jokingly as george kicked his leg and spoke.

"forever. no excuses." he said as clay smiled and responded.

"forever it is then." clay said.

the two laid there in silence and peacefully for a short while, it allowing them to both collect themselves because within the upcoming hours george and clay could both easily decline.

clay watched as george's breathing was steady, and then looked to the stars in the sky speaking, he hadn't intended to express any emotion but his mind told him he needed too.

"i'm scared... people know my face; people know me, my sexuality and soon to be us... the parts that i wanted private and wanted to keep private for as long as i could, is just gone george... gone." he said.

george listened carefully and then moved his head up and stared at clay who was still staring into the night sky.

george went on to flip himself back over to the grass and resting his head on the front of clay's shoulder, then gently intertwining their hands and giving clay's hand a reassuring squeeze.

sure george often was the emotional crybaby seeking comfort from clay, but now it was george's turn to give comfort to clay.

clay looked to the side and saw george smiling and gently giving the comfort he needed.

"no matter what i'm here with you..." george said as clay smiled and pecked george on the lips then speaking.

"okay, well better now than never." clay said as george smiled again and nodded.

the two helped each other up and entered george's home, closing the door behind them to ensure cat didn't get out as she wasn't exactly an outdoor cat, she also had no road sense so she could easily be hurt, but either way.

as they both walked through the kitchen and into the living room, they were met with sapnap and karl practically kissing each other's face off, george rolled his eyes and continued walking through and to the stairs, meanwhile clay grabbed a cushion from the floor and threw it at them then speeding to catch up with george.

as clay got midway up the stairs and george had reached the final step, they both heard sapnap shout.

"CLAY! NOT FUNNY!" he shrieked as george turned wide eyed looking at clay who was giggling but trying to hide it.

george shook his head and whispered.

"moron!" he whispered as clay slowly made his way up to the same step as george, their faces closening and the feeling of each other's breathe on one and other's necks, clay then whispered back, smirking in a teasing and flirtatious manner.

"but you love me for it...." he said as george smirked back and rolled his eyes, then walking off towards his room, leaving clay hanging for a kiss... clay's mouth gaped open as george knew exactly what he had done.

as he opened his bedroom door, he heard hurried footsteps follow him and enter the same room, the door closing as george sat comfortably on his bed looking directly at clay who was staring back still in a state of shock.

"excuse you?! what was that!" clay said then crossing his arms and standing straight up like he was in his infant arc and sulking over no ice cream.

george smirked and then spoke, trying not to break seriousness with laughter at the sight in front of him.

"what was what?" he asked as clay's eyebrows furrowed and arms crossed even more.

"you know what! gimme a kiss!" clay said as george couldn't help but snicker as clay's voice even sounded like a whining child.