secrets - dreamnotfound

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i wake up early with the sunlight shining through the small window above the bed. the bedsheets are uncomfortable and cling to my body. i let out a sigh and pick up my phone that is on a small table. i see a message from clay.

clay🟢- just saying heather is here and safe, get some sleep

i smile, it was sent last night while i was asleep. it was three hours until visiting time started so i just scrolled through my phone waiting, i had a few check ups in-between but soon clay and heather walked through the doors.

"hey, how are you feeling?" clay says pulling me into a hug, he kisses me gently on the forehead and steps back for heather to hug me. "yeah, i feel ok." i knew i was talking in a harsh tone but i hoped they would understand. "have any idea when you'll get out?" heather asks taking a seat on the end of my bed.

"yeah, they said that i'm fine to leave now but they need to know i won't go and do it again as soon as i leave so they are waiting." i reply. clay nods. "i got you some snacks." heather says smiling. she hands me my favourite sweets (or cAnDy in america). i look over at clay knowing i won't be able to eat them.

"want me to take them home with me and you can have them when you feel better?" i nod and hand them to clay. "george, i forgot to say that mum and dad are in prison for child abuse." i raise an eyebrow at her as if questioning her and she nods.

not long after someone wearing a suit comes in. he looks at me and speak in a calming voice, "are you george Davidson?" i nod. "ok, are these your friends?" he asks looking at clay and heather. "clay is my friend and heather is my sister." i say with a smile, still not sure who this person is. "great, is it ok if they just stand outside for a moment? i need to ask george some questions." he asks. clay and heather walk out of the room.

"hello, i'm Wilbur and i'm your new therapist. he says with a smile. i relax a bit now knowing its not just a random guy. "ok, so i'm not going to get you to tell me any of your problems for today but we can just talk a bit about things that make you happy and maybe next time, if you feel comfortable with it, tell me about some of your problems." i nodded. 

so we talk, we talk for about an hour until his phone rings and has to leave. "ok, george. i'm going to speak to the doctors but i think your ok to be going home soon." i'm surprised by the answer but also excited i get to be away from the awful place. clay and heather walk in the same time as a doctor. 

the doctor does several check-ups before saying i'm alright to go home. clay and heather help me get my very few amounts of things i had on me and we get into clay's car. i sit in the passenger seat and almost fall asleep. i feel clay's hand on my leg and shives got sent up my spine. i start drifting of to sleep as i hear heather say "just date already."

i wake up by feeling arms on my back and under my knees. i open my eyes slightly to see that clay is carrying me inside his own house. i close my eyes again, enjoying the comforting feeling of clay near me. 

I'm played down on the bed and then feel a weight next to me. arms wrap around my stomach and i realise clay is spooning me. his face is resting in my hair and i can tell he thinks im asleep. "i love you, Georgie." i hear him mutter. butterflies flutter around inside me. i drift of to sleep with a wide smile on my face.

~~~

"hey." clay said with a cheery voice, hugging me from behind as i step into the kitchen. "hi." i say back in a calm voice. "how did you sleep?" he asks, letting go of me and spinning me around to face him. 

"good thank you." i say with a soft smile. clay smiles back at me and plants a small kiss on the bridge of my nose. my cheeks turn pink and i feel flustered. 

"aww is wittle gowg awl shy?" clay said in a baby voice. i giggled and he planted more, small, soft, delectate kisses all over my nose and cheeks. making a fake "muah" sound between ever kiss. i giggled and he finally stopped but not before giving me one final kiss on the lips. making me turn even more red.

"so, what do you want to do today?" clay said, turning around to the fridge and getting out two bottles of water and passing one to me. "i don't know really." i say as i sit down on the counter top. clay nods and walks towards me. 

i wrap my arms around his neck and wraps my legs around his waist. he pulls me up with his hands on my thighs. he spins in circles and we both start laughing. "ahhh noo put me downn." i say through laughs. clay then throws me over his shoulder so he's holding my ankles and my stomach is laying on his shoulder, my arms hanging down to the floor. 

he are both giggling and having the best time of our lives. i've never loved someone as much as i love clay.

~~~

i wake up shaking, it was a dream. i should have known. i just wished it was real.

 i had basically admitted that i liked clay and i knew he liked me so why was i trying to deny it? 

i feel movement next to me and see clay waking up. "hey." he said in his morning voice that i could never get over. "hi. do we have school? i'm so behind now it's crazy." clay nods before groaning "i don't want to go to school." he drags out the l in school. i don't reply but rather get up and go to clay's wardrobe. "can i wear your clothes? i only have these." i say pointing to the clothes i slept in. clay nods and runs a hand through his hair trying to wake up.

i take a pair of sweatpants and a hoodie from clay's wardrobe and go to the bathroom to get changed. i look in the mirror and saw that my ugly, fat reflection was wearing sweatpants that were still too big after the string had been pulled as tight as possible and the ends were rolled up. the hoodie hiding any evidence of hands. i sigh. "you look beautiful." i hear clay say behind me.

"what?" i ask, turning to look at the blonde boy. "you look beautiful, and cute and stunning." he says walking towards me and picking me up off my feet. once he puts me down i pinch my arm to check this was real. "but why?" i ask. "i know why you were staring in the mirror for so long, but trust me your the most beautiful person i've ever seen." 

clay's compliments were warming my heart but i knew he was just saying it to make me feel better and didn't actually mean what he was saying. "now lets get to school." clay says.