From The Heart of The Moon

Chapter 9

20 Days Until Prom
Saturday. I rolled around in my bed with Lyla snuggling next to me. I sighed and starred up at the ceiling. Yesterday still lingered in my head. I reached for my hand mirror and starred at myself and what principal Tyler said rang in my ear: "And what kind of person YOU wanna be." But when I looked in that mirror, all I saw was the girl I've always been: the lone wolf with the heart of the moon. Principal Tyler said it like he thought I could or wanted to be someone else. But HOW am I supposed to be someone else? Isn't this person I see in the mirror who I am? Isn't this the Diana everyone wants and knows? I bit my lip and a voice shouted back at me: "What kind of question is that? Of course the person you see is you Diana! It IS a mirror after all! Be a little tougher will ya!" I set down the mirror. I didn't really feel like texting Ash or Casey after yesterday. But... It's not like I exactly have any other friends, and I don't want to end up listening to my parents fight again. What I COULD do is think about this new school in Japan thing. I thought. Well question number one: Did I really want to go? No. Too hard, I give up. I picked up my phone and scrolled through my very few contacts. Ash. Casey. Ash. Casey. I chose Casey. I texted her:
Me: Hey are you there?
... :Casey
                                Yeah Diana, I'm here.
                                                               What is it? :Casey
Me: I was thinking about
that school in Japan,
Me: For real, would it really
be that bad if I left?
                                    Well... I can't say
                                                           I'll be happy. :Casey
I'll miss you. :Casey
Me: But you would have Ash.
Are you asking me this because
you're planning on going? :Casey
Me: CASEY!
I just wanted to know. :Casey
Sorry. :Casey
Me: Don't be sorry, I just need
Some help making a decision.
You wanna talk about it 🤔 :Casey
Me: ... You know I don't like
Talking about my feelings...
I just want to be able to help you. :Casey
I have to go, my mom wants me,
Talk to you later! :Casey
Me: Bye. 🥺

Well... that didn't go as planned. I thought. I rested my head and drifted back to sleep.

19 Days Until Prom
I woke up late afternoon on Sunday. I haven't been able to sleep much since school started so it made sense I would be out cold on the weekends. But last week was still hunting me, this time about Wyatt and Ella. What would Wyatt be willing to do to get me to go to prom with him? I thought feeling all yucky inside. What price is he willing to pay? I  FIGURED, since Wyatt was the alpha he would have SOME friends. But he also had those potential friends and being alpha to lose. BUT he also REALLY wants me to go with him. So Wyatt was pretty unpredictable at this point. And Ella, How far would she be willing to take it? What was she planning? What could she ACTUALLY do? What would it cost her? I had so many questions that needed answers. I guess I'll just have to be extra careful at school. Lyla meowed and snuggled up to me.
"You understand me, don't you buddy." I said to Lyla and she bobbed her head up and down as if she agreed. Then I remembered: When Casey came over that one night she taught me a little bit of cat. Maybe I could try it.
"Say something! Anything!" I babbled to Lyla in human. Mmmeeeeeeoooooowwwww! Lyla responded. I closed my eyes, I think that meant around the lines of:
"Are you seriously trying to do this?" OR "Well... what do you expect me to do!?" I rubbed the cats head.
"I don't know what to do either girl." I replied, IF that's what you said. I thought. Prrrrrr. Lyla cooed, which perhaps meant: "I think you need to one up! And face the fact that you don't know what you're doing anymore!"
"Well, THANKS VERY MUCH!" I grumbled, but I was distracted by the sound of mom and dad shouting. Sun of a- what now? I tried to listen from my room. But it all just sounded like random non sense! Meow. "They are seriously acting like two, two year olds having a temper tantrum."
"I know." I sighed, sometimes, like now, I felt like the grownup. And grownups make there own decisions. So I guess I'm going to have to figure out if I want to go to End-Stone West on my own.