Beautiful Scars

CHAPTER 8: THE TRUTH

I am extremely nervous for some reason. I have to be mentally prepared for everything because I could feel there's something shocking is about to be revealed. I was playing my own version of scenarios that could happen once I meet him. Should I be angry and just slap him or just run and hug him? Or thank him for saving my pity ass?

"Tracy, we have reached."

That's when I looked out and saw a huge bungalow and started panicking. "Wait! Is he back to meet his family?" Shit! I should have just waited. This house is so huge and there's no way he's staying alone here.

"Tracy, Tristan's parents are long dead."

"You are telling me he's living alone in this god damn big house????"

"Yes for now. By the way, I am not following you inside. I'm not ready to get myself kicked."

"That's okay. Thank you for risking everything and bringing me here."

We said our goodbyes and he left. How do I greet him? I just stood there for another 5 minutes before embracing myself and ringing the doorbell. It's now or never!

A good 2 minutes later, he opened the door. He's shocked for sure. His expression says it all.

"Hi."

" What are you doing here Tracy?"

"I could ask you the same. What are you doing here? Why did you leave so sudden? And exactly how long you plan to keep me outside?"

"Oh sorry, come in. I had to settle something, so I left. That doesn't mean you can go around finding me instead of resting. And speaking about that, how did you find this place?"

"Settle what Tristan, your temper? It doesn't matter how I know because right now I have a number of questions for you."

"Tracy, I don't think this is a good time. Let me send you back."

" When did you first saw me?"

"Tracy..."

"Don't Tracy me! Do you know how confused and scared I am right now? What do you want from me! I tried to stay away from you yet you kept on getting closer and now after doing everything, you just left! What am I? A f*cking toy! You think playing with my emotions is fun? I am so tired of all these! I don't even know who to trust anymore! Everyone around me is hiding something! Have y'all finally decided to kill me so that you don't have to see my ugly ass anymore."

I wasn't expecting things to go this way but all those fears and uncertainties really got to me this time.

Tristan approached me and hugged me tight, soothing my crying ass.

"Please, don't ever say that. I'm sorry. I love you Tracy and I was worried if I confess to you since the start, you wouldn't accept. I wanted to change the way you see yourself and show you there's a lot of people that love and care about you. I wanted to show you that you are not what you think you are. You are kind, brave, hardworking and most importantly beautiful just the way you are."

I just stared at him, trying to digest what he just said.

"I honestly don't understand why would someone like you even love me?"

"You see, this is why I couldn't tell you anything. Stop degrading yourself. You deserve more love and definitely those people you met before doesn't know how to appreciate you. Please give me a chance to show you how much I love you. You mean the world to me Tracy. You have no idea how much I wanted to hurt all those people that tried to hurt you before. When I saw you in that state yesterday, I completely lost it. I wanted to kill Simon! Just trust me and I will never let anyone hurt you anymore."