𝒮𝑒𝒸𝓇𝑒𝓉𝓈 𝐼𝓃 𝒯𝒽𝑒 𝒲𝑜𝑜𝒹/𝒷.𝑒

𝒜𝒷𝓈𝑒𝓃𝒸𝑒 𝒪𝒻 𝐿𝑜𝓋𝑒

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Troian's pov:
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Billie thinks I'm asleep right now, but the truth is... I haven't been sleeping all night... it's maybe around 1:00am and I just can't stop think about my diagnoses.

Are they right? Do seriously have that? Is that what's wrong with me? Is there something wrong with me? I mean... not a lot of people have that... I don't think... obviously I'm weird and something is wrong in my brain.

But those.. hallucinations... they felt to real... I swear sometimes I could touch things... I could see people, hear them... talk to them...

I called them dreams 'cause what the fuck else could they be? Right? Like it felt so real. I swear to god real life and those hallucinations fit in as one...

This whole time was I walking around like sleeping walking but not... like... the diner at billies house... did I act out all of that? Was I talking to myself? God I'm so embarrassing... this is so embarrassing...

"Bug?" Billie whispers, barely taking me out of my thoughts.

"Oh yes?" I say, turning to her.

I must have moved and not realized.

"You alright? You were mumbling, babe." She points out.

"I'm sorry. I've been thinking a lot I guess." I laugh uncomfortably.

"It's ok. You're allowed to..." she says, in turn, making me nod.

Suddenly, Billie gets a call...

"It's 1:00am." I whisper to myself.

Billie looks at me, and walks to the bathroom, taking the call.

Excuse me? Is it that private?

I snoopily walk to the bathroom door, listening to the conversation.

"Hey babe." Billie says softly. "No listen, I'm with troian right now, and it's late. I'll take to you later, ok baby?" She says, making me heart hurt.

Baby?

"No. That's her business. It's not my choice to tell you about it.... because it's her li- you know what Jackson? I'm not auguring with you." She says, and makes her way back out. I don't leave the door though. I stand there. She's knows I heard her. I did it on purpose.

Billie jumps back slightly, gasping, as she sees me right in fount of her. "Troian! You scared me." She chuckles nervously.

"Kissing your best friend while seeing some other dude at the same time huh?" I say venomously. "How old is he?" I ask.

"Troian-"

"Age? Address? Phone number? Pets? Huh? If your gonna have a boyfriend and not tell me at least tell me his age." I say sternly. "And if your gonna kiss me and play with my emotions, at least tell me now before I decide to come out to everyone because I like you... don't put me through that for nothing, dude." I say quickly, staring her down.

Come out? Yes. I like Billie. Finneas is the reason I like her. Because of finneas I got my heart broken.. and who's always there? Who made me realize finneas was too old to actually be with? Who got me over him? Billie.

"I- um... 19. He's 19. You we're gonna come out? For me? Because of me?" She says almost sadly.

"Well that's progress right?" I scold, ignoring her second statement as I didn't mean to say that.

"Troian I'm sorry. I was gonna tell you. I just didn't have the he-"

"So you kissed me? Because you felt bed? About lying straight to my face in a hospital bed? Is that what happened, baby?"