𝐃𝐎 𝐌𝐄 𝐀 𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐔𝐑 ➵ 𝐅𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐗 𝐖𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐍

x. hurt

DO ME A FAVOUR!

"SO I heard through a grapevine that victor and mia are hanging out and victor plans to take felix with him and lake would also be there." camryn explained.

it was about 6 pm at this point and we were at my house. i laid across my bed, camryn at the foot of it.

"how do i correlate with this?" i asked.

"you're crashing it." she said nonchalantly.

my eyes widened quickly as i sat up abruptly.

"i'm what? i can't just show up to someone's house uninvited!" i slammed my face into my hands.

"not if i already kind of told victor to invite you.." she mentioned.

"cam, you're going to be the actual death of me." i sighed, shaking my head, which was still in my hands.

"come on, give me your hand, it's time to get ready. we gotta impress the boy!" she declared as i was drug in my closet to look at something suitable to wear. tonight is the night where i could possibly ruin everything.

"YOU GOT this, you'll be fine. victor said that he'd be here in the next five minutes, there is nothing to worry about." camryn said, trying to kick me out of her car.

"i'm gonna be dead after tonight because of you." i gave her a deadpanned look as she flashed a bright smile. she gave me two thumbs up before pulling away, resulting in me sitting on the sidewalk. i was wearing a mini dress, a nice shade of baby blue with some sneakers and of course, that damn bucket hat because camryn insisted i do so. sometimes she can be an absolute meanie through all the shit she puts me through, but i'll still love her.

"bambi, is that you?" i heard a voice say behind me, seeing victor and felix standing just above me. i gave them a small wave before felix was offering his hand. oh god. i grabbed it as he pulled me up from the sidewalk. his hand was slightly calloused but felt good in my hand, i liked it where it was. i felt a blush creep up on my cheeks as i was at eye level with the boy. "what are you doing here?" he asked, with a smile plastered on his face.

"i invited her." victor cut in, mouthing a 'you're welcome' to me behind felix. of course, she told victor about my crush, though it didn't bother me; i knew he wouldn't tell felix about it.

"yeah.." i said, scratching the back of my head as i realized that i was still holding his hand, letting go quickly. "sorry."

"it's alright.." felix said, beginning to get quiet.

"let's head in." victor said, beginning to walk up to the porch, felix and i trailing behind him. after a knock on the door, it opened to lake on the other side.

"this isn't some party, victor. felix and that thing need to leave." she said harshly.

i looked to felix, who looked at me. we didn't have any clue on what to do.

"they'll be quiet, lake. just let us in." victor said. after a few moments, with a groan, she let us into the house. i felt her eyes glare at me as she closed the door. what was up with her? usually she's bitchy, but not so much of a bitch.

victor had went upstairs to where mia was, while felix and i drifted to the living room couch, lake on one side and us on the other. the tension in room could've been cut by a knife, it was that awkward.

"listen bambi, i don't know why and how you're here but i'd advise you leave, you shouldn't be here." lake said, her arms crossed.

"why are you being so nasty to me? i know it's all to get the dirt, the gossip or whatever the hell you call it for your creek secrets posts, but you can drop the act. i don't care anymore, lake. you can keep being a mean girl all you want, you can't do anything to hurt me." i said, my eyebrows furrowing. all she did in response was scoff and go into the kitchen.

"why'd you say that to her?" felix began to question. "you're suppose to help me here, bamb."

i grabbed felix's arm, bringing him into the area by the front door.

"not when all she can do is say terrible things to me. you're suppose to be my friend, felix and all you do is turn a blind eye to her when she says all these horrible things and spreads all the horrible rumors about me on creek secrets." i began to tear up. "i get you like her and all but is it worth it to be with a person who can never say a kind thing about someone?"

"lake is a great girl and she's amazing and i believe that you should see past that, bambi. there was a time where you said horrible things about me and look where we're at now. we're friends." he said with that same stupid smile that always got to me, drawn across his face. how can he be that oblivious?

"that's different felix, i tried year after year to apologize to you, meanwhile lake can only say these horrible things and never have an apology for me." a tear fell from my face, i wiped it away quickly. i knew if i'd stay any longer, i would be a mess and i didn't want him to see me like this. the last time i did so, i ruined my hair, i can't ruin this friendship or whatever you could even call it. "i should be going, felix." i darted away from felix and to the door to outside the house. tear after tear fell from my face, my arms folded in front of my chest, i was cold.

"bambi!" i looked back to the front door to see felix running to me at the end of the sidewalk. "don't leave, please stay."

"with her here? no thanks." i smiled weakly, letting out a stifled laugh.

"lake doesn't mean any the things she says, you know that." he said, almost trying to convince me.

"but does she? why do you keep defending her over and over again, felix?" i said, in a matter of fact tone. "she continues to be a bitch to me and you can't even bring yourself to see that. i know i say that it doesn't hurt but it hurts. a lot." i said, more tears falling.

"don't cry.." he said, wiping away some of my tears.

"i can't!" i said, trying to choke back my sobs. "it hurts the way you look at her and how much you like her. it hurts how i look at you like the way you look at her and don't feel the same way. it hurts that i have all these feelings for you and you have them for her. it hurts that all i think about is you and you're thinking about her." i said, my eyes glossed over my field of vision to where i could barely see felix. great, i did it again.

"you.. like me?" he said, almost speechless.

"it doesn't even matter now, felix. so why don't you just do me a favour and go inside and talk to her. i know you like her a lot and i don't want to be in the way of whatever the hell is going to happen next.." i said, completely and utterly humiliated by me telling him everything.

i turned my body, walking in the direction of my house, crying heavily into the crook of my elbow.