The Adorable Casanova

Please Forgive Me

"Phi Forth? Please? Why you angry with me? Its him whose rape me than ran away like a coward. He bullied me in high school, make me depressed and had to moved," nearly scream, Preya goin mad.

"Preya, my lovely cousin, can you stop now? Don't make yourself so low with all the lies you throw to him. I know the truth. I have investigated everything. Do you need proof? From your ex school principal? Your school friends who knew what happened earlier? Or your mom?"

Preya become pale. "M-mom?"

"Or your doctor?"

"W-why?"

"I think they will say the truth about how your mental state since your parents got divorce."

"I am not crazy!"

"I know. You just depressed, and you have take medication, same with Beam. He got himself abandoned by his divorced parents, too, Preya."

"W-what? Phi Beam got his parents divorced too?"

"Yes, a lot more worse than you. Your parents got battled to get you, Beam's parents got batlled to let him go. He has to lived with his grandmother and for the rest of that time, his mother abused him with hars words because of her anger to Beam's father, so does his father did the same. Beam nearly suicide, then you came to make his life more suffered."

"Oh my God," Preya cried hard. "I didn't know about that. I think he was a rich and happy boy whose always played with girls, here and there."

"That's Beam. He hated being pitied by others. He hid his tears, his wounds, his suffer soul with laugh, play and funny attitude. When everything became worse, he chosen to killed himself than being a burden for his parents and grandmother. He was lucky, someone saved him."

"No, no, no, what i've been doing to him... Oh my God, oh my God."

"So, stop now, huh? Don't disturb him again, will you?"

"I have to apologize to him. I really like him, maybe i love him, but i make him sad and hurt. Its all my fouls, Phi, I have to apologize."

"Give him time to heal. I will take you to him if he is ready to meet you. For now, please stay away from him. Can you do that?"

"Yes. I can. How bad, Phi? Is he hospitalized?"

"No. But, he need rested for few day. He was shocked and his anxiety make him bad."

"Phi, how do you know which of us lied about that incident?"

"Easy, Pre. You are the victim, and he is the perpetrator, according to your story. But the night after the incident on campus, you were seen going to clubs, dancing and drinking with your friends. Beam? He cried all day, shut himself in the room and high fever. Ironic, isn't it? "

Preya looked down embarrassed. "How did you know I was in the club? Did Phi Beam say anything bad about me?"

"As soon as I heard your story, I asked my men to find out, and one of them followed you, keeping you from happening bad to you. Beam never said anything about what happened in your high school. I heard everything from Phana and Kit, including Beam's whole life story. He doesn't even want to talk about it himself. He just cried and slept all day, like he had no energy to life "

"I'm really bad," Preya cried again. "What should I do to make amends, Phi? I really did not think my actions had made him suffer so much. His condition was even worse than mine."

"Just wait, you can apologize to him when he's better. Actually, he has already forgiven you. He said he understands why you did that. You need attention because of your parents' divorce problem. He also went through the same thing."

"Can you please convey my apologies to him, Phi? I'll wait until he wants to see me so I can apologize directly to him. I really feel ashamed because he was so nice after what I did to him."

"I will tell him. Be a good girl, Pre. You are very beautiful and smart. There must be a lot of boys who like you. Don't spoil your image with bad behavior. You are my cousin and I will always protect you, that means, I will also protect you from bad deeds you did to others, so that you would be better. I won't indulge in justifying something that is harsh because it's not good for you mentally. You understand that, right? "

Preya nodded and hugged Forth. "I understand and thank you, Phi. I will improve and become better. Phi Beam also made me realize that my family condition should not be used as an excuse to blame others and make them suffer to repay my parents for hurt."

Forth patted Preya's head with a smile. "Good. Well, now I have to go. You can call me anytime you need me, oke?"

"I will. Thank you, Phi Forth. You are the best brother I ever had."

Forth left Preya's apartment and stopped by a Korean restaurant near the mall. Ordered several types of food then drove the motorbike again.

Forth opened the door to Beam's apartment, went inside and turned on the corridor light. "Beam? Baby? Are you awake?"

Beam sat on the floor of the room, in a ball-like position, crying silently and in disarray.

Forth chased towards Beam and scooped Beam's body onto his lap, wrapping Beam's trembling body with his embrace. "Shh ... don't cry, Baby, tell me, what's wrong?"

Beam looked up and with his red, watery eyes, he muttered. "Forth, please forgive me, please, please forgive me. Yes? Please forgive me."

Forth scared. Beam kept repeating the word and his eyes grew blank.

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